An Alter Tried To Kill Me

[EveHarrington]

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[Ronin]

@Saelben, you DO realize saving your life is more than any bloody nonsense like a job, and such?

And that you cannot keep working for a very long time given your mental health is out of bounds and you're acute threat to yourself?

 

[ladee]

@Saelben, The option of the hospital is about all you have left !! You said you don't know what to do. Neither do we, but we know and you know, that this is serious. You do not know how long they will keep you...you mentioned being without internet. I really don't feel that is priority right now. You trying to work thru this yourself is not working. You have to do something different than what you have been doing to get different results.. nothing is changing until you do what you have to do.... Knowing that we love and care about it is not enough.... you have to do something different !!!! Don't think about it, just do it.. just call and get help...

 

[shimmerz]

Some may take issue with this, but I used to tie myself to the bed. I was a runner into the cold night - freezing cold actually, and I was concerned I would freeze to death. Always due to nightmares. So I hooked up a system where I would have to wake up and untie myself before I left the bed. It kept me alive.

Not sure if that helps you at all @Saelben. Much love to you, my friend.

Shimmerz

 

[GWhizz]

I feel for you deeply. My T is trying to get me to work on reducing self harm. Though I can't stop what happens when I dissociate after nightmares and flashbacks. I really urge you to disclose this event to a professional, be it your therapist if you have one or an emergency department, asap. Your life is important. Put yourself first. Your job will still be there tomorrow. I'm worried about what could happen to you in the future. It was hard for me to admit that I couldn't control self harming. But I couldn't control it without professional help. Hugs.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

I totally agree that you should go to hospital @Saelben

 

[joeylittle]

@Saelben - who were the other people around, and why did none of them remove the weighted bag?

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@joeylittle
My parents
I guess they saw me fall on my face and stuff, bu the bag happened at a later point of the night, and also, I woke up at 5 Am, before them.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

The problem with hospitalization is that here the profesionals are quitenunkilled, that is why I go to another city for appointments, here they cannot... thus it could become a rather bad experience to be inpatient here, not helpful at all.

I will tell my theraphist\psychiatrist as soon as I see him

 

[joeylittle]

Ok.

I remember you were mentioning thinking about adjusting your meds on your own, before seeing your psych. I hope you didn't - or, if you did, it would be good to try and get that appointment sooner, maybe.

I'm sorry your parents were so unhelpful.

 

[ladee]

Sending support Sael..:hug::hug::hug::hug:

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@joeylittle
Nope, I haven't adjusted on my own, I'm still on the standard dosage, I was talking about suggesting heightening of dose.

But I highly doubt that is the reason for this.