Give or take? But mostly it's like a default, like I'm overwhelmed and I can't take it and I snap but no one...
just speaking for myself, I believe that's because basic boundaries were violated when I was a kid, and as a kid we had to deal with it, or accept it, what else were our options, but now as adults we don't have to allow others to violate our boundaries, but we have to define ourselves first in order for us to even know what our boundaries are, then enforce them, I think that angry and hatred is the only thing we were taught as kids, but it's honestly not healthy, and walking away is much better than handing over all our personal power to someone who doesn't deserve it no matter who they are, walking away, calling someone in a neutral frame of mind or someone that's indifferent to what's going on, but is supportive of you and your happiness and your well being, makes sense. digging that poison and anger and hatred out and freeing yourself from childhood resentments, the best way I can see it, is the fact someone intimately close to you as a child treated you in a inhumane manner, as a result you developed a sense of life or a sense of reality that's on the most basic level warped and delusional, it's only when you break the old habits of thought and behavior or abandon them or unlearn them do you begin seeing how wonder life can become for you, in just a short time, or you can keep repeating the same old survival behaviors of your early life and keep wondering why things always end up the same way over and over and over agian.
On a more personal level I do the same, I get full of hate and resentment and bitterness, like a wound within that gets dirty and infected, sore and of course I don't want anyone around it, don't touch it, but until it's cleaned out, it's never going to heal up, in fact, the infection will keep spreading throughout my life, I'm just spitting toxic acid like poison on everyone near me, it's a head job a inside job for sure.
