Hi, I'm new one here. I'm from Slovakia (you don't where it is, but it doesn't matter, central europe btw). I'm here because I can't find that much informations about ptsd, and definitely not about cptsd (which will be listed in the 2018 edition of International Classification of Diseases for the first time, btw), or forums like this one - in Slovak language. It's funny because itş look like that in Slovakia no one suffer from ptsd, or cptsd, or childhood trauma (btw last two are actually my problem). Which is not true of course, we have people who suffer, but it's like we don't talk about that, or what. Or perhaps we are not so familiar with all those conditions. I'm not sure why, it may be because of our mentality. But I know from some sources that even on our universities for psychology they not pay attention so much to adult children of alcoholics as they should, for example. They mostly treat alcoholics. But whatever, it's not that bad, we stuck somewhere between post-communist country and central europe. And besides I have good therapist, she is pretty knowledgeable, so far, but I don't have madications, I don't want them for now.
I have two questions.
1. Do you people feel sometimes anxiety all day ? All fuc..ng day ? Intensity can be variable, or may not be. I mean that this night, or actually early in the morning, I have had nightmare. But it wasn't anything unusual. Scary, but nothing special about that. And when I woke up I felt anxious, and till now. I feel tired. I took medication, lexaurin, from my mother. It helped a bit. I did some exercise. It to helped a bit. But I have had a day when I had to deal with some things, some tasks, something like that, and it wasn't easy of course. All that time I felt gut-wrenching, tightness in chest because of anxiety and sometimes ... I don't know... something like dizziness? in my head. On scale 1 to 10 it was sometimes around 4 or 5 and sometimes around 6 or 7. I tried cope with that but seems to me like nothing really helps. It's annoying. I feel helpless, vulnerable, tired, irritable. It could be something subconscious.
2. Second question is about object of fear. How many things, situations, people, can scare you ? Is it individual ? I guess so. I even think that it may depends on if you have cptsd, or ptsd and it could be variable. For some people it is about very specific object/s, for some it could be more general and some way vague as for me on this day. Seems to me like that I can easily develop phobia, or some sort of anxiety disorder, you name it. Is it like because my amygdala, or limbic system in brain is damaged, or hyperactive, always alert ? It's look like that because of that I could easily develop those things. For example there was a period in my life when I used to have fear from highs, but before I used to not, or not so much, maybe in some normal level. However I somehow managed.
Of course most of the time I'm hypervigilance. I'm practically constantly on guard, always looking for ways that things can go wrong, everywhere, public transport, workplace, street, some department, store, etc. Most of my fear is about people, but a couple of days I was in forest. Just some normal hiking, but I was sooo afraid of wild boar, or some dogs they could show up because someone is walk them. Which may sound normal, I mean wild boar, right. But I was so alert all that time in forest, that I couldn't enjoy my leisure time as I used to !
So sorry for a little bit longer text. But I'm new here so I thought that I should or could bring closer some informations about me.
Peter
I have two questions.
1. Do you people feel sometimes anxiety all day ? All fuc..ng day ? Intensity can be variable, or may not be. I mean that this night, or actually early in the morning, I have had nightmare. But it wasn't anything unusual. Scary, but nothing special about that. And when I woke up I felt anxious, and till now. I feel tired. I took medication, lexaurin, from my mother. It helped a bit. I did some exercise. It to helped a bit. But I have had a day when I had to deal with some things, some tasks, something like that, and it wasn't easy of course. All that time I felt gut-wrenching, tightness in chest because of anxiety and sometimes ... I don't know... something like dizziness? in my head. On scale 1 to 10 it was sometimes around 4 or 5 and sometimes around 6 or 7. I tried cope with that but seems to me like nothing really helps. It's annoying. I feel helpless, vulnerable, tired, irritable. It could be something subconscious.
2. Second question is about object of fear. How many things, situations, people, can scare you ? Is it individual ? I guess so. I even think that it may depends on if you have cptsd, or ptsd and it could be variable. For some people it is about very specific object/s, for some it could be more general and some way vague as for me on this day. Seems to me like that I can easily develop phobia, or some sort of anxiety disorder, you name it. Is it like because my amygdala, or limbic system in brain is damaged, or hyperactive, always alert ? It's look like that because of that I could easily develop those things. For example there was a period in my life when I used to have fear from highs, but before I used to not, or not so much, maybe in some normal level. However I somehow managed.
Of course most of the time I'm hypervigilance. I'm practically constantly on guard, always looking for ways that things can go wrong, everywhere, public transport, workplace, street, some department, store, etc. Most of my fear is about people, but a couple of days I was in forest. Just some normal hiking, but I was sooo afraid of wild boar, or some dogs they could show up because someone is walk them. Which may sound normal, I mean wild boar, right. But I was so alert all that time in forest, that I couldn't enjoy my leisure time as I used to !
So sorry for a little bit longer text. But I'm new here so I thought that I should or could bring closer some informations about me.
Peter
