whiteraven
MyPTSD Pro
So...I have had this problem for awhile. At the doctor - and really, after I make my appointment to go - I have an incredible amount of anxiety. It comes from never being listened to or taken seriously and from being harmed multiple times by both medical doctors and psychologists/psychiatrists from the time I was in high school. I hate to go to the doctor because I am terrified s/he will do something to hurt me.
Problem is, my blood pressure is always high when I go. It's not in-between; I have taken it multiple times over several months and it's never high. I have provided "proof" to my last doctor and this new one and I did again today. He agreed it wasn't high, but wanted me to take the BP medicine anyway. The diagnosis he gave me was "white coat syndrome" hypertension, which just means that when I go into the office, my BP is high, but not at other times.
I am sooo mad. Because I had really hoped this doctor would be different. And because I don't want to take medicine that I don't need.
Another issue I have is this feeling that if I have high BP or high cholesterol, or diabetes, I am an inherently bad person. And they are all my fault. I can't shake it and it makes going to the doctor for issues I actually do have nearly impossible.
Anybody else?
Problem is, my blood pressure is always high when I go. It's not in-between; I have taken it multiple times over several months and it's never high. I have provided "proof" to my last doctor and this new one and I did again today. He agreed it wasn't high, but wanted me to take the BP medicine anyway. The diagnosis he gave me was "white coat syndrome" hypertension, which just means that when I go into the office, my BP is high, but not at other times.
I am sooo mad. Because I had really hoped this doctor would be different. And because I don't want to take medicine that I don't need.
Another issue I have is this feeling that if I have high BP or high cholesterol, or diabetes, I am an inherently bad person. And they are all my fault. I can't shake it and it makes going to the doctor for issues I actually do have nearly impossible.
Anybody else?