Anyone else cry in their office?

[Placebo]

I hide it when I cry in the office. I hide it very well and try very hard to, but some days I break down and cry because of PTSD. I go in the bathroom or cry at my desk. I can't help it. It is the only thing today that made the psychical pain in the back of my chest stop hurting and it hurt so bad I had to control shaking. I am afraid I am going to get fired if it keeps affecting my days at work. It is bad right now as some different events have happened. But ptsd is not ongoing abuse I have lived with on going stalking and abuse for over 26 years. I had ptsd and they knew and kept making it worse. Little amounts of brain damage wasn't enough they wouldn't stop until it was massif brain damage.

 

[Teasel]

In an approximately similar situation without the job. Am sorry @Placebo it's tough. I cry too (not in my office)
Best x

 

[Wendell_R]

Although I am really functional at work on the whole, I too cry at work. Most of the time, I'll go on a walk and have a cry by myself. I've also cried in the bathroom, and sometimes at my desk. Crying can really help me regulate myself when I express the emotion inside me instead of letting it fester.

 

[somerandomguy]

I've definitely cried at the office. I had to use the restroom while I shared an office, but now that I have my own office I'm free to bawl away and I've used the opportunity a few times.

 

[Eliza]

I have had a couple of situations where I have cried at work. Most recently it was in a new job, where they didn't know anything about the PTSD. I had a major flashback, and had to go and cry and have a panic attack in an office that wasn't being used. Unfortunately a couple of my colleagues walked in, and it was all incredibly awkward for a few moments.
My boss has told me I can use her office to cry, but that is just WAY too awkward. Now the end office (my crying space) is in use, I pretty much just lean forward, stare intently at my screen and try to stop my shoulders from shaking. I cried in the toilet once, but there is only a single toilet, so if I go in there to cry, there's pretty much always someone outside waiting to use it.
So I definitely get where you are coming from. It's tough.
Do you have a fairly understanding manager? Or someone at work you can speak to when things get too much?