Anyone Else Have Trouble Completely Opening Up To Therapist?

[anon88]

Hi anon85, maybe your GP can refer you to one? I can't remember how the NHS system works (and I never had mental health care while there) but I believe your GP can be a starting point in referring you.

That said: this is what I did where I live. I got my referral, but find it a difficult institution to manage. You can't call or e-mail your therapist, timing of sessions are limited to bang-in-the-middle-of-a-day which makes it hard to be discreet at work - but this may well be different in the UK. At least I hope it is!

Thanks. I felt really threatened and intimidated by the setup the NHS uses, as I have deep issues going back into childhood, and horrible memories of anorexia and psychiatrists and what my child mind interpreted as abuse. There are power issues, I have enough trouble going to a GP for athletes foot and being made to feel like something that shouldn't be walking the face of the earth.

 

[anon88]

I went to see a psychiatrist through my GP a few years ago, but as I said the location and style reminded me of the tradition of that kind of thing. They were much, much worse than useless when I was a child, and I would have been much better off if I had died than anything they did.

 

[seedling]

Can you have someone go with you? Try again and find some way to feel in control?

 

[anon88]

Can you have someone go with you? Try again and find some way to feel in control?

Thanks, I know what you mean, it just isn't available at the moment. When I went to see that guy a few years ago, seeing all those people with their souls ripped out, the part of them that had identity had been destroyed. I am not sure if there is anything of me that is any more intact, but nothing in my past experience indicates it is safe to trust them.

 

[anon88]

I never have been able to access any help. I hear people talking about finding therapists all the time, so curious how other people access them. I am tired of depression and at worst total hell, not being able to sleep and function, just not being at all. When I was a child I got the feeling adults at worst enjoyed the power and pain they caused, and at best were totally ignorant; I suspect a mixture of the two.