Bad day

[FauxLiz]

And when I went to the mental closet for who to get a hold of to try and boost my mood, I drew a blank, I am in a tough holiday spiral and the only rock I can think of is probably the only human on the planet I can’t contact. Our work is terminated any future contact inappropriate

So I am stoned because I was struggling through hearing everyone’s happy family holiday plans watch the damn commercials reading the heartwarming news I am starting to freak about forced mixed family togetherness starting when I land on Friday through the hours of close quarters car travel to the ultimate rural nowhereville

I was trying had to manage the holidays sober now I just want them over before they begin

 

[FauxLiz]

Sorry everyone last night was a bad night and I should have done a better job of regulating but I didn’t. Cold light of day here and time to put on my adulting outfit and remember that I am not the only person with difficulty around the holidays.

 

[pink318]

Hi FauxLiz,
How are you today? I hope you are doing well.
I pray that you will have peace and will have a happy Christmas in spite of what you are going through.

I hope you will remain strong no matter what you face in life, you are in my prayers. God bless.

 

[Muttly]

We all have those bad days. no need to apologize. Thinking of you and sending support. This is a hard time of year. I struggle every year, so I can relate to a lot of what you are going through.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

I totally get the feeling. I am also going through something during the holidays. I always know it's coming but I am sadly not more prepared. Again. And the closer we get to the holidays the more I have confusing dreams and wake up dreading the day. I am trying to use routines and to-do lists to keep myself together enough to do what's needed, but I totally get the feeling of unraveling when the holidays come close. Unless you don't feel that quite as severely as I described, in which case better for you. Anyway. I hope you're feeling better now.

 

[FauxLiz]

Thanks for the support everyone. I haven't been here much this week, trying to clear my desk at work so I can take the holiday week off to spend with my dysfunctional family. The respiratory crap I was dealing with earlier this month has made an untimely reappearance this week and I am not looking forward to being crammed in busy airports, planes and cars with a bunch of people feeling this way. I suppose I shouldn't complain I will have 12 days off and only use 4 vacation days so no bad for me that way.

I am trying not to obsess with Dr. Google but got the MRI results today from the test on Monday appears to be a major impingement in my neck which I suppose explains the pain etc just keep wondering when I will stop falling apart, I suppose when there isn't anything left that hasn't been fixed LOL.