Birthday-bah Humbug

[KwanYingirl]

Well, it arrived. Today I am 60 years old. I have been very nervous about what my children have planned for me. I implored them not to include my family, but no one called me at Thanksgiving except I was with my daughter.

What I dread is surprises. Does anyone else struggle with that? Not knowing what will be happening is making me feel trapped and fearful. Gift of PTSD or my personality??

 

[Seagreen]

Maybe a little of both ( :
Happy Birthday!

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Happy birthday! I know that you are afraid of what might be coming and that turning 60 was not something you were looking forward to. I hope that there is something special you can do for yourself to celebrate because you've worked hard to get to a better place. And if there is a surprise party planned, I hope it calm and something you will be able to enjoy. Good luck today.

 

[Ellabella44]

Happy birthday, hope if it is a surprise that youre able to be calm and enjoy.

 

[amethist]

Happy Birthday.

 

[shell]

Happy Birthday, hope you have a restful day, without surprises.:)

 

[Friday]

Can't stand surprises, either, and I used to love them.

Not even presents. I'm waaaaay more happy (like get to feel that warm/flushed/happy feeling when I get them, instead of cold dread & awkwardness no matter how much I love it) if people tell me what they are getting me in advance, or failing that, give them to me unwrapped. Worst is when it's a surprise and I have to open it in front of them. Lol I've had a present sitting, waiting for me to open it, for weeks. I keep forgetting about it. But it lurks. I see it, I turn away from it, and go find something else to do. Sigh. Note to self: unwrap the dang thing.

This also extends into any kind of limbo. When I'm waiting on something to happen, that I don't know which way it will go. Waiting for my divorce to finalize, so I'd know custody, was hellish. Waiting on anything, in limbo, trapped, is a dangerous place for me to be. I tend to react irrationally to it. S'why I impose logic on it with the "and then what?" Game. But if there are too many avenues to me to shore up? I got a bit nuts.

Surprises. Yuck.

Lol. Hating surprises coupled with some serious control issues. I'm a peach ;)

 

[Friday]

Haaaaaapy Birthdaaaaaaay to You!
Haaaaaapy Birthdaaaaaaay to You!
Happy Birthday Dear @KwanYingirl !
Happy Birthday! Tooooooooooooooooooooo You!
:D :):inlove::happy::singing::singing::singing::singing::singing::singing::singing:

 

[Recovery4Me]

Happiest of Days!

Not knowing what will be happening is making me feel ...

60 can be a magic time...it allows much practice in 'not knowing' and feeling love anyway.
Perhaps by our 70's, we shall both openly greet surprise birthday parties with joy...just because we are happily surprised to see others or to be seen!:clown:

May you have many lovely unfolding delights during this special day and journey forward.:hug:
Peace to you and love.

 

[desiderata310]

Happy birthday my dear. :)

I hate surprises too. I might be something of a control freak.

 

[Hope4future]

Happy birthday. I hope you take a moment to celebrate your strength and goodness.

 

[Anarchy]

Happy Birthday
:hug: