Court Monday

[jenny72]

Thanks Gizmo, its great to have this understanding and support from all of you:) I think we will all do something together after this is over - my hubby,son,and daughters and all try to move on from this tradegy. I may never see my family (Mom,aunt,siblings) again but I do have my own family and I'm happy and grateful for that. We will heal,get help, and move on....

I am feeling abit better, the rock solid muscles in my upper back and shoulders has eased up now- no spasims today...I am going to try more of the relaxation exercises! Wish I knew what I've been suffering from years ago...I have gone to physical therapy for my back and was told it was from scholosis that its like that- I kinda wondered how it felt worse when I'm stressed! The massages and heat therapy were heaven though! :inlove:

 

[jenny72]

outwardly calm will be a challenge...I have trouble with that even with my boss at work- I think she knows something is goofy about me! If she ever yelled at me I know I'd lose any composure for sure....panic.

I have to be brave about alot of things everyday and just do them...I have to take care of my kids no matter what!

 

[jenny72]

Well, made it through without a panic attack or fainting! I am so tired and sore... I hope I never see my family ever again. He is going to prision 4-6 years and then probation again. I am so glad it is all over.

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((((((((Jenny72))))))))))))))))))))))

Good for you, nothing about what you did was easy but you stood up for someone unable to stand for themselves, that's being super hero!! My mother couldn't or wouldn't when I was a child. How brave and loving of you!

Do something gentle and kind for yourself.
Peace,
Rain

 

[KP the nut]

(((Jenny))), well done you. Tired and sore is normal for what you have been through IMHO.

Now take the time you need to recover. Relax (as much as you are able), be kind and and reward yourself.

 

[jenny72]

Thanks rian and KP. I will try to relax, it is hard and I am afraid- I cannot get into it much as I did this morning and last night, stress level soars.

((((((((((rain))))))))))))
I understand how it is to have parents not protect you/neglect - myself and my siblings....perhaps if my Mother did, things would be different now.

 

[jenny72]

Physical symptoms were bad, cramps,shivering,pain. I did the breathing and tried the scents wich I think helped. Everything kinda fell apart in the moment,but, I didn't faint or have a full blown panic attack!

 

[jenny72]

Well, shoulda guessed it wouldn't be over yet...somebody (anonymous call) called in a complaint of my hubby that he's abusing/hitting me. He is my best friend and supporter and would never hurt me! I feel awful that he and our kids have had to deal with all of this horrible stuff from my family- why and how did I forget/not know how bad things were!! Why did I drag them here!! So stupid...I ran away before, there was a reason..in my mind why did I make them all seem ok?? Just needed to get that out.

I felt attacked at court... While on the stand I blanked out (a blank stare thing) and had to have questions repeated. I was also extremely anxious and probably looked like a deer in headlights! Everyone in my family got on the stand and lied, and said whatever they had to to try to protect my brother. The Lawyer got up and said in his final 'speech' that I look obviously abused by my hubby!

 

[Bubba]

Jenny - I am so sorry!!! I am sending (((((HUGS & PRAYERS))))) your way right now. Hang in there - be kind to yourself!!!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Jenny you did so good, I am glad he is going to prison. That should give you a measure of relief. I am so sorry your family is acting up. I am so sorry you have to deal with this crazymaking experience. You have been through enough. You were very brave and couragous. I am sorry they accused him of abusing you. It will always be something with them. Now they have to face and deal with the prison system while they are visting him.

I haven't heard of a family presenting such a united front like this before. I hope you get some good nights sleep and that your scoliosis does'nt act up on you. Many hugs of congratualtions and support. I am so very proud of you. You are so brave. I am glad your son got some justice. Justice is a rare thing.

 

[jenny72]

Thanks Bubba and Gizmo for your support...

My Mother is at the lead of this united front. I think something is awry with her aslo. I only remember some bits of bad stuff from my childhood....I guess I tried to make everything ok in my mind. The prosecuter and advocate said they see situations like this in families that have this type of abuse happen...its not uncommon I guess. Its a denial thing and they have to justify it so they are saying my son and hubby made it up, then that he's abusing me.

staying up most of the night but getting enough zzz's to get by, as far as my scholosis goes...I'm calling my Dr. today. I'm not sure if this pain is from that or stress related. I need to find out, its really acting up lately. Yesterday was tough at work...I work in a group home caring for 4 men in wheelchairs whom have MR. I gotta get my back/shoulders to stop hurting! The charlie horse spasims are coming back lately....:confused:

 

[Red Feather]

You are really brave and give me a lot of courage.