This gets kind to be kind of TMI so here is your warning.
Okay so... I've posted this on a few websites and only have gotten a few answers, but they don't really tell me much. Basically, when I was little (around 4-5) I got really sick with encopresis and my parents took me to their family doctor. He was like sixty five at the time so he did things old school. He held me down on the examination table and proceeded to pull out all of the fecal matter that was stuck in me (tmi, i know) without telling me. I was screaming and crying for him to stop and he told me I needed to stop crying and to hold still. My parents just stood by and watched and had to hold me down at some point as well.
Well, after that ordeal he sent us all home and told my parents to watch my diet and that should help. It didn't, and about a month later I was sick again and had to go to the hospital where more doctors and nurses held me down and forced an enema up in me to make me go. They did this about five times in one hour, and I do remember it clearly because each time I hopped off the toilet the nurse said, "We're going to do it one more time." And after all that, I was referred to a specialist at a bigger hospital about an hour away. When my parents told them what the family doctor and the other hospital did, They were shocked and said stuff like, "That was absolutely traumatizing and she should have been brought here first so we could have done x-rays and prescribed a mild laxative." And that my parents should expect for me to have trust issues with them.
I'm eighteen now and I still have terrible flashbacks and panic attacks with the whole ordeal. My anxiety is through the roof and whenever I see an enema on the store shelf my eyes well up and I start to hyperventilate. I also can't stand being held down in situations. I've tried talking to my mom about it, but she dismisses it saying that I over react to things and that I need to get over it. My dad does the same thing. (My dad pretty much believes doctors can do no wrong)
All of the feedback I've gotten from other websites says that it was pretty much like sexual abuse, as I act out a lot like an abuse victim. I don't know what it is, I guess I'm looking for answers and to talk to someone about it because my parents feel like nothing was done wrong and I can't talk to them about it.
Okay so... I've posted this on a few websites and only have gotten a few answers, but they don't really tell me much. Basically, when I was little (around 4-5) I got really sick with encopresis and my parents took me to their family doctor. He was like sixty five at the time so he did things old school. He held me down on the examination table and proceeded to pull out all of the fecal matter that was stuck in me (tmi, i know) without telling me. I was screaming and crying for him to stop and he told me I needed to stop crying and to hold still. My parents just stood by and watched and had to hold me down at some point as well.
Well, after that ordeal he sent us all home and told my parents to watch my diet and that should help. It didn't, and about a month later I was sick again and had to go to the hospital where more doctors and nurses held me down and forced an enema up in me to make me go. They did this about five times in one hour, and I do remember it clearly because each time I hopped off the toilet the nurse said, "We're going to do it one more time." And after all that, I was referred to a specialist at a bigger hospital about an hour away. When my parents told them what the family doctor and the other hospital did, They were shocked and said stuff like, "That was absolutely traumatizing and she should have been brought here first so we could have done x-rays and prescribed a mild laxative." And that my parents should expect for me to have trust issues with them.
I'm eighteen now and I still have terrible flashbacks and panic attacks with the whole ordeal. My anxiety is through the roof and whenever I see an enema on the store shelf my eyes well up and I start to hyperventilate. I also can't stand being held down in situations. I've tried talking to my mom about it, but she dismisses it saying that I over react to things and that I need to get over it. My dad does the same thing. (My dad pretty much believes doctors can do no wrong)
All of the feedback I've gotten from other websites says that it was pretty much like sexual abuse, as I act out a lot like an abuse victim. I don't know what it is, I guess I'm looking for answers and to talk to someone about it because my parents feel like nothing was done wrong and I can't talk to them about it.
