Dissociation, What Are Examples?

[ms spock]

In my personal experience with dissociation, the sensations I feel vary....my body may go numb, or when it gets deep enough, I just "go to sleep"; I'm not tired when I do this usually, so it's not me just being sleepy, it's me fighting consciousness...

I did that today! I feel asleep whilst studying and writing up my paper.
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[Gamereign555]

Between dissociation, derealization, depersonalization, nightmares, lucid dreaming, out of body experiences, flashbacks and hallucinations, we are pretty complicated people with complicated experiences. It is possible to differentiate each of these experiences. Dissociation is its own definition, however I have seen some sites try to lump all these experiences into one catagory and call it dissociation, but this is false. Dissociation is its own thing as apart from the rest of everything else as everything else.

 

[ms spock]

It is hard to thresh out the differences between disassociation, derealisation, depersonalisation, night mares, flash backs and etc.

Complicated stuff some times.
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[BridgeJumper]

Its like a surreal existence, body imprisonment with an out of body experience, numb, time has no place in my world , bye.

 

[ms spock]

Not being there at all. Or wondering where you were? Or who did that thing? Or how did you get in to this situation.

 

[ms spock]

OMG! You do what I do! I get very sleepy when I dissociate. I just want to go to sleep...and never wake up. My brain just shuts down.

Spero

So many people have this but it it not written about much in the literature.

 

[Megan]

i guess i'll share..
starting in 5th grade, i started pretending to be someone in a tv show... it was soo real for me.
my mom said it was my imagination. i just thought it wasn't normal. that stopped though this year when i started worrying like crazy if i had lewy body dementia because my grandma had. she would see something on the news and then tell us it happened to her like there was this news about people coming from mexico and she's like "Oh these people sleep under the tables and in my bed" like it was real.

now i don't think about anything. its blank all the time - feels blank. i thought i knew what reality was. at least it was my reality. i don't have friends and that imagination made me feel secure. now i can't make big decisions etc.

 

[ms spock]

The Television thing is creative and clever. It kept you alive.

I go to sleep, or go around and around my head, as some type of superhero, I have fantasies I am powerful.

I do the imagination thing big time.

I also had a fantasy that my parents were not my real parents as my alien parents had had a space ship malfunction and would be back to pick me up as soon as possible.

The disassociation takes the form or checking out or going in to my own fantasy worlds.

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[CiaOk]

Thanks to this forum on my very first day I realise that I am displacing rather than having flashbacks but to be honest I dont know... only one person was charged with our sons murder, the court case was harrowing, the CPS (crown prosecution service) told us we would be more comfortable and hear more if we sat in this booth like thing with windows looking into the court and what was being said was over a speaker, the jury who will could not see or put a face on acquitted the accused even though he did not deny killing our lad, not even guilty of manslaughter this is inspite of all the forensic evidence that proved what the defendant was saying was not possible ( i am not bias on this).. I think my point if I have one is for me it is like the whole system failed us, they said our son deserved to be stabbed in the back whilst being held down by 2 others who unbelievably was not charged , so they said our son doesn't count, (even though no one actually spoke those words) the jury is made up of supposedly people from every section of society.. this is early days for me but maybe it helps explain how I can explode on certain things, rememberance day being one of them as our son does not count under the eyes of the law and the state.. am starting to feel a bit shaky now, but I just wanted to say thank you for such an informative forum, I know I have a long way to go yet but just want you guys and gals out their to know, in only a short space of time you are already helping me and I am so grateful to you... Maybe because we could not put faces on the jurors they are everywhere? i honestly dont know, I do know that at times my behaviour is abhorrent and usually towards people I do not know or cannot put a face to.. feel strange. xxx

 

[ms spock]

The failure of the judicial system is so hard to take.

 

[CiaOk]

normally when a jury returns its verdict they are thanked by the judge for their service etc.. the judge in our case stormed out after saying case dismissed, he didnt thank the jury nothing... just stormed out, but leaving that aside I want to understand how I can stop seeing people as the jurors, its not fair, the jury was only 12 people not every stranger in the world which is how I/it feels, so thinking on... maybe my behaviour is about wanting to be judged myself? I dont know, this is a hard one... after the murder and the trial my job was to support my lovely wife through this, I made sure she got the help whilst I remained strong.. since then we have moved to a rural remote area.. less jurors here :)

 

[CiaOk]

I slept better last night through something I read from one of froggys postings, made me wonder if my rage is sometimes a good thing, very rarely is it directed at individuals but rest assured if someone judges me negatively then I just fly and maybe here lies a trigger... judgement and betrayal, do I seek out betrayal? if I do it is not something I am aware off, but some things and subjects I find people open their gobs without thinking.. me included LOL.. hate it when people say if someone done so and so to my kids I would do this etc.................. well thank god they are not in that position because once upon a time we said the same thing, rememberance day... for one day I see or hear people pontificating and the next they walk on by, same with the homeless at christmas you see the once a year-ers usually their to flaunt their social status and say "oooh aren't I the caring one" this shit happens 365 days a f*cking year, is it a "conscience clearer" for them? This morning I woke up crying, dont want to be on this earth any longer am sick to the high teeth of the hypocrites, the liars and the twats, but I have a responsibilty to certainly outlive my lovely wife, a responsibility not to put my nephews and nieces and those friends who stick by me through needless grief simply because of feelings of betrayal?

I think even if the jury had convicted I would still be affected by what happened in the court, only counting the days until they were released.. it is the betrayal from those on the jury, from the state... the prosecution felt they had it all in the bag because the forensic evidence was compelling, however they underestimated the ability of 12 of my so called peers to be complete and utter dick heads who could be persuaded by emotion.. had the prosecution called people to speak about our boy then maybe the outcome would have been different but again the forensic evidence was compelling and the jurors should have known the defendants version of events were simply impossible.