Do You Have Any Friends?

[EmmaOwl]

I've been finally able to read books. It takes me longer than most people that much is certain, usua...

I am grateful whenever I can sit with a book.
It troubles that it takes me longer, and I don't retain things...but it's something.
I actually have a little thing going with my therapist, I am reading "easy" things but on the back burner I have a more difficult book. I'm scared that I won't get it, not the way I used to. So far I've done the Prologue and the first paragraph of Chapter 1! (It is a remarkably long paragraph! ; )

 

[Deleted member 38644]

I am grateful whenever I can sit with a book.
It troubles that it takes me longer, and I don't retain...

I'm still on the introduction page of a book I am wanting to read

 

[EmmaOwl]

Actually prefer going to the movies alone and I'm usually comfortable at concerts by myself.

Me too. I always have been, though. I think it's good to be comfortable enough to go out on one's own.

For me, well, a couple of things - I liked artsy movies, - I also liked silly blockbuster movies! - and as for concerts - I did not want to ask people to buy a ticket to something they might not like. Same deal with restaurants. I was a foodie; my friends weren't; I'd save up for a meal at a fancy place, and always had good experiences on my own. I also had great times at dives! I would investigate; for example, I'd go all around and find the very best pho place (Vietnamese noodle soup).

I also suffered from "small-town-itis" and got myself into a city whenever possible - where I could be anonymous and enjoy my own company. I miss sitting at a bar with a lager and a book!

This was all before I got VERY sick. No concerts for me now. My next step is taking myself out to see a movie. I used to do without blinking; now it is a challenge.

 

[EmmaOwl]

I'm still on the introduction page of a book I am wanting to read

Sometimes I just sit with a book in my lap, not turning the pages. I've read about 5 pages in the last 3 days - but I always have a book handy, "just in case".

 

[Rani G2]

Hey Lauren Taylor,

not one friend. I use to have 1-2 people, but they cut off the connections, without any word, any explanation and what really hurts is the fact that I have a large family background, cousins, aunts. But there is no genuine relationship at all.

Its almost as if I have been forgotten.

 

[Cypress]

I have trouble making friends too. I have a few friends from high school and college that I see a few times a year but its really just my husband and my family. I sign up for classes and volunteer so I don't get too isolated but I think maybe I act weird or nervous because I can't seem to move past pleasantries.

I would like to have better friend skills but I don't know where to start.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

My best friend is deceased. I only have one friend that I stayed friends with through all of this

Hey Lauren Taylor,

not one friend. I use to have 1-2 people, but they cut off the connections, without...

I totally understand. I tend to stop talking to people so many times

 

[Heather]

I wish I had friends. My one friend haven't heard from in six months. We had plans. She was a no cal no show.

Haven't heard from her since.

 

[LiketheMouse]

I always thought I had great friends. Until the sh*t hit the fan. They had me committed then stopped talking to me, cut me out of long standing activities and now I don't have any.

PTSD sucks.

 

[Frenzy3674]

It's hard for me to make friends and when I do have friends I tend to dissociate. I can't pay att...

For me it's trust.

 

[I_will_recover]

I've been off this site for a month overwhelmed with anger, sadness, denial, disinterest... I received the weekly email saying I'd been inactive and it brought me in on today. Oddly enough, the emotion I'm feeling strongest is alone. I've lost my closest friends/support systems due to my trauma. I think seeing me in constant pain, being uncomfortable with the reason for my trauma (sexual assaulted by someone they know, also some who's past trauma was triggered by mine), and the natural continuation of their lives (while I'm stuck like it happened yesterday) is why. I also had to move back to my home state away from *everyone*. I recently became close with a cousin here but she was just diagnosed w/stage 4 C, so I anticipate losing her soon. Like @Gadgie I have no one to pick me up from the dentist/hospital and no one to list as an emergency contact (No one for T would call if something happens). This has caused a strong sense of sadness. Cried yesterday realizing I'd have no a single soul if I had a funeral so this post is timely. I am alone.

I apologize for the emotional/lengthy word vomit above. I didn't realize until I was typing how badly I just needed to get that off my chest.

Oh, to answer your question---no, no I don't.

 

[Skyalex]

It's hard for me to make friends and when I do have friends I tend to dissociate. I can't pay att...

I have one friend. I can't trust people.