Yeah man, you might has well have pulled your profile from mine. You aren't alone at all.
I was molested by a priest at age 4-5, suffered the loss of my mother when I was 9, abandoned for some time during the last year of my mom's fatal bout with cancer, shuffled all over the country by a very violent and abusive dad that couldn't process his grief, nor, be aware enough to help me with mine, more death, loss of close friends and colleagues, unending grief, not able to grieve, multiple major auto and motorcycle accidents, permanent disabilities that I f$cking power through (yee-haw), bi-polar, C-PTSD, all sorts of recreational alcohol and chemical abuse, emotionally abused, mentally and physically abused, some past trouble with the law as a result of alcohol induced flashbacks, countless broken friendships and relations, my father tried to murder me at least three times that I know of, I have divorced most of my family, I have occasional suicidal ideations, have attempted suicide numerous times, anger issues, violence, on, and on, and on...
The fun part is the post-trauma trauma of being a Desert Storm Veteran. That is some good Sh!t right there I tell ya! Thank god for patient friends, loving and committed family, a great local VA system, and some pretty fair treatment by the local magistrates because they seem to understand how jacked up we Vets are after coming home from duty abroad.
