Emotions Turning Physical

[Deleted member 20978]

I haven't seen that title @The Albatross . Looks like a good suggestion, and I actually got an Amazon gift card from my cousin! Will check it out, thanks :)

 

[Deleted member 20978]

Yeah @Saetva I bet my nocturnal pattern lately has something to do with favoring dark actually.

 

[Deleted member 20978]

ps They still make radios? I should get one...

 

[Deleted member 20978]

Why is this a featured thread for 8 hours I wonder? Is it that good a question?

 

[Justmehere]

Radios? I suppose they do still make those. Lol. In the meantime, check out iheartradio or even YouTube. They have stations of relaxation music or 1-10 hour long YouTube videos of relaxation music of all types.

Could actually put on a rain jacket and go hike if I wake up with some daylight hours... Gonna try. Or the gym. I am promising myself here to do this.

You got this Jemini!

Good observation about the pot. If you haven't yet read The Body Keeps Score... it's well worth it.

The Body Bears the Burden is another resource that might be worth reading.

I hope you enjoy your hike!

 

[Deleted member 20978]

Yes am hitting shower then hiking boots.

Triggered beyond what anyone can see. But I get the sense that makes some folks :happy: yay I'm going hiking!!

 

[Stickler]

Until I became allergic to aspirin :( excedrin migraine took my migraines right out. Either that or 800 mg ibuprofen plus a cup of coffee( yup, allergic to ibuprofen too).

Light sensitivity's one of my usual symptoms, I guess not so much for you. I also note emotional wobbliness can be part of the migraine prodromal symptoms...it is for myself, I have gotten moody, then had a migraine.
...So the question would then arise, did the trigger cause the migraine? Or did you trigger that hard b/c you were in the build-up to a migraine? You will have to observe yourself to figure that one out.

Oh, and :hug:. Ain't this stuff some bullshit?

 

[corvidae]

could i add maybe get an eye exam if it keeps up? just to rule out any optic nerve and other eye part wonkiness. the visual "snow" plus tinnitus could be something that needs a bit more attention.

 

[Deleted member 20978]

I collapsed in the shower. Shaking can't make it out. please dont

I dont want to leave this site im sorry you dont think i deserve to be here just stop with the f*cking hate im not stupid I have traumas too you ____

 

[Deleted member 20978]

I am blanking. I am sorry. Head games trigger can't trust anyone now

 

[Powder]

Unfortunately, the not making it out in the plan and the sudden loss of trust is all too familiar. I'm sorry the plan didn't work that time.

I have had a sinus infection which caused blurred vision and many PTSD symptoms overlapped. Sometimes, being in pain, the body blanks the pain and goes into PTSD mode instead. At least, that's what I suspect has happened to me. By PTSD mode, I mean various things that happen to me after triggering the F's: flight, fight, freeze. These never felt the same though.

There must have been more than Dante's levels in there, maybe still is.

Point is, don't leave the site. If someone's triggering you, you can block them. You're doing really well, don't give up just yet.

 

[Deleted member 20978]

@Muse thank you so much. My own experience here was informative. I did something that for me is HARD, and simply asked directly in private about intent. I think dynamics are all fluid and always need to look again at what multiple meanings might exist, but in this case I learned that my paranoia was I believe the real culprit. Or more specifically, my own fears about being abandoned by community, being misread, etc. I think all sides of this are real, but Iearned by asking that there is goodwill and whatever else, I need to be doing a lot of work on how I choose to understand others words and actions. In some cases (1/3? really?!) people may simply dislike me, and... thats... okay... That was not the case here. Or, well, the things I imagine are being commented on that I don't like about myself when I perceive them as comments, if I look at it the right way, I should be trying to address those things in myself.

On topic -- I keep waking up with less than an hour of sunlight, which is making hiking not ever work. I'm not simply lazy.

Today have spent 2 hours reading/responding to flags and also made myself a decent breakfast and coffee after actually sleeping for a good 8 hours. Did laundry. This is good. Going to force myself to do some more housework and -- can't believe it has come to this -- watch some TV as good for me to just detach. I have the option of going to the gym (24/7 for only $11/mo!) but there are some significant triggers for me going there, haven't been in a full year now. I maybe will try.

I'm trying to take care of myself for not just my own sake. One thing I can see (going into my permanent record, oh no someone might quote me on this) is that failing to do things to take care of myself that no one else can or is going to do for me and then complaining that no one is taking care of me? (Channeling a friend here) Keep doing that and see what happens, jackass LoL :wink:

My physical symptoms are in fact in better shape today. I guess sleeping and eating are important :confused: I may want to see GP again, think I was too quick to dismiss that advice. My blood may not be same as it was 6 months ago.