extreme overwhelming anger

[hope4us]

do other people with ptsd also feel this way? its like even the stupid little things in life can make me feel like i'm losing my mind. i get so overwhelmed with stress and anger that i feel like ripping up my entire room and destroying everything in my path OVER STUPID LITTLE THINGS. for example... my allergies are driving me nuts, i cant find my bottle of gatorade, my head hurts, and the neighbors next door wont shut up. All these things aggravating me at the same time, and i start screaming like a lunatic, and throwing things and breaking things because I'm so overwhelmed with stress. They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but i dont agree with that except for when its referring to physical training. I went through a lot of trauma last year and i feel so weak and damaged and different compared to how i felt before it all happened. is this normal for people who have been to hell and back? i think I've just reached my breaking point. its like my mind and my body cannot take anymore stress. i always have something physicallly wrong with me too. its either i'm dizzy, i have a headache, my back hurts, I'm cold, i'm itchy, or I'm too exhausted to function.

 

[arich62]

I know I need to identify what stresses me out - or what is going to stress me out. I first and foremost, need to talk about it to someone who listens and understands and can give me some respite from the situation.
I have had anger and rage problems over the years and when I have lost control I tend to break inanimate objects.
I have dealt with addiction for a long time, currently in a 12 step program for sex addiction because it became a way to escape a bad situation, until I started to realize that lust was/ is a big lie.

 

[Mach123]

Yes it's just sorta always like that. That's what gets people on medication not being able to handle feeling like that anymore, but the meds don't really work. I mean they work but there's side effects. I've been using weed the last few years successfully, but I'm plateaued right now a little and I'm gonna have to deal with it.

 

[Friday]

do other people with ptsd also feel this way? its like even the stupid little things in life can make me feel like i'm losing my mind. i get so overwhelmed with stress and anger

This >>> The ptsd cup explanation

 

[blackemerald1]

do other people with ptsd also feel this way?

^Yes we do unfortunately. :hug:

even the stupid little things

^Stupid little things are just as crippling as big things.
Just because they're little and stupid doesn't mean they are insignificant.

 

[hithere]

@hope4us yeah it's awful. I want to comment on the allergy thing. When I was in my 20's & I had alot of responsibilities like a business I was building, new marriage, new house, babies, family of origin, friends, volunteer work etc, etc etc.... I was maddened, completely maddened by allergies. Everything was maddening. The inner rage was horrible because I didn't want to abuse anyone--I was exhausted, I got diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Immune Dysfunction. PTSD was in full force and I didn't know what it was. ALL THE SYMPTOMS! But the allergies I about wanted to rip my face off, no exagerration. (I also had joint pain, back pain, metabolism was sensitive.. on and on )

I joined the CFID Association and followed their suggestions which was take each symptom and treat it. So I went to the allergist and got allery shots. I got cured, completely cured of allergies by the shots. It took 6 months, but reliefe was noticed around month 4. I purchased a new bed that I liked. I got anti-inflammatory meds for the joint pain. Just taking care of the allergies freed up a lot more energy for the other PTSD stress. My close neighbors told me how I seemed like an entirely different person after I got allergies cured (not medicated by anti-histamine actually cured by shots)
So your post just reminded me of that time and how I went after the physical symptoms that were the most bothersome--it was like multiple storms were raging in me and the allergies were just one of the storms.

 

[reallydown]

Hi there. Yes. This happens to me too. Even if it's a couple of people tryi g to say something to me at the same time, I lose it. It almost goes exactly the way you described. Sometimes I break things too.

I also get a lot of physical ailments too... From headaches, to colds, to my asthma flaring up... It's always something. I find myeds helped initially but lately not as much and I have been more irritable, especially when stressed out. In fact, I am currently taking a break from work because I am so damn exhausted, the symptoms are worse again and am in the midst of a nasty depressive episode.

Anyway, just wanted to share that I deal with this stuff too. Try to be gentle with yourself. Hang in there.

 

[hope4us]

i had court and had to sit there pretty much all day long. the first hour of being there i felt EXTREME anger. im talking literal boiling rage inside me, i could have beat the living shit out of someone with the anger i had. anger is an understatment for what i was feeling. i was absolutely infuriated. than i started to feel like the room was spinning ,my body got extremely hot, eso]pecially my head felt very hot and i am never hot, but i didnt want to take my coat off because i would have felt more exposed and unsafe if i would have taken it off. the coat made me feel safer, it was like a sense of security even tho i was burning up., so i kept it on and kept pulling my coat up so it was covering my neck, and i was crying and overwhelmed with anger and anxiety. than after time went by i felt completely emotionless, my emotions were numb, it was like they were dead. i didnt care anymore, and it didnt bother me. but than as time went on, it gradually came back, i started feeling all worked up with anger again, like i was going to lose my mind because the feelings were so overwhelming. i could'nt deal with sitting there all day long and doing nothing. why might i have such an intense reaction to something that most people would only feel a little irritated about? how can i control it better next time? did i have a panic attack? anyone have a similiar experience?

 

[hope4us]

i was begged and begged and nagged constantly to do specific sexual things that i did not want to do, but he kept pushing it and pushing it, and making me feel like i had to do it, i told him everyday all the time that i did not want to do those specific things, and he'd get pissed and just keep begging me untiil i finally gave in and gave him permission even tho i was miserable the whole time we were doing it, and he knew damn well that i did NOT want to do it. whenever anything reminds me of it i get extreme overwhelmign anger and i want to rip up everythign in my room. my therapist told me to write out my feelings, so i started writing and after i started writing about it i was shaking from feeling so angry, and i was breathing rapidly, and had to stop myself cause i couldnt bare to feel any more anger. anyoen else have this problem? is this some type of sexual abuse? how do i help myself when i feel such overwhelmiing rage?

 

[Friday]

had to stop myself cause i couldnt bare to feel any more anger. anyoen else have this problem?

You’ll probably find this >>> The Iceberg Of Emotions <<< super useful

There are some other badass threads/articles on anger, but this one is speaking directly to what you’re talking about, and the task your T set you at.

is this some type of sexual abuse?

With PTSD, not everything -or even not most things- that you’ll be reacting really violently to will be capT Trauma. In fact, it’s often the “little” things that cause the worst reactions, or f*ck us up the most. PTSD is fairly simple/straightforward... but the effects of trauma? Get complicated as f*ck.

To hypothetical that for a moment? Let’s say you’re having consensual sex with someone who abuses you/in an abusive relationship, and completely nix agreeing to do things you don’t want to do. It can be amazing sex on the surface... but STILL be choked in - Helplessness, fear, rage, disgust, guilt, shame, etc. OR? It can be your happy moment of feeling loved and treated well and this glowing piece of hope a sea of misery and pain and rejection outside the bedroom. OR? It can be both. At the same time. Now? How f*cked sideways is your head & heart going to be surrounding that completely consensual no abuse of any kind sexual encounter? Most likely? Very. Because it’s complicated. It’s not as simple as sex good, sexual abuse bad. Instead there are layers and layers involved, that are later going to reach out and smack you. Twisted, tangled, complicated layers.

So... what I’ve learned? Is that it matters a helluva lot less “what” something was, and faaaaar more what the effects are. Iceberg of emotion is a great example of that, because it’s looking at all the pieces that go into a single effect. Whether it was sexual abuse or not? It’s f*cked me up. In these ways. And then start breaking down those ways.

 

[somerandomguy]

Why were you in court? Because I can think of many, many reasons to be in court that would cause those kinds of emotions ...

 

[hope4us]

Why were you in court? Because I can think of many, many reasons to be in court that would cause those kinds of emotions ...

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