Undiagnosed Family has gaslighted me into insanity

TruthSeeker

MyPTSD Pro
I really can't give you an answer as to why its happening to be honest. I have had crazy things happen to me my whole life. I don't even have as much as a misdemeanor on my record. All I have been trying to do for years is get on with my life. I have never f*cked anyone ovee and that is the honest truth. My family were the ones doing these things to me since as early as I can remember. I called them out on their bullshit after 26 years calling my mom and dad narcissists so I that could have defintely set it off. As far as what I did to them to deserve it?! I've never done a single thing to them ever. Absolutely nothing and I would take that to my grave. I just want this shit to end.


Stay away from potential abuse sources, get yourself safe, suicide is not an option (not a good one anyway-and they win if that is a route you choose to consider), and you do have options. You got any distant relatives that are not narcissistic? You have any friends that could put you up? G
Brandon, homie look for other explanations.

You got enough problems than add a conspiracy to them.

Besides, better equipped to sort stuff once stable. Not when u fretting about what them other niggas do.

Cults do and can have conspirators, info gatherers,, and will follow you around if they think it is in the best interest of the cult, and if you are straying from the fold in particular.. Cults doctrine are about conformity and manipulation. This is one of those rare times to use the strategy-don't talk and lay low -with respect to a cult ,,,,,the less they know the better for you. The next time someone comes up to you who is a brief acquaintance.and tries to start a convo.......say, "I'm sorry, I don't believe I know you." and walk away fast and smile. You will need to find positive things to occupy your mind-the paranoia will make you crazy if that is your focus.
 

Ronin

MyPTSD Pro
Truthseeker, I work real conspiracies for a living.

If I say something is not worth the worry, and smile about it, wanting to hug the poor lost soul? I bloody mean it.
 

TruthSeeker

MyPTSD Pro
Truthseeker, I work real conspiracies for a living.

If I say something is not worth the worry, and smile about it, wanting to hug the poor lost soul? I bloody mean it.

I couldn't do that for a living....no offense....just got my own shit going on.....the lengths people will go to make a person's life crazy.......it's insane. No they are insane!
 

Brandon

New Here
Its truly insane!! They lie so much that they cover up their lies with more lies and then when you catch them lying about it they ask if you have been feeling ok or if you have been taking your medicine or better yet they just label you a mentally ill person. Then everyone gives you stupid looks and you know that they have been telling other people bullshit, but of course they lie about that too. So you will never really get any sort of honesty out of them whatsoever. Their whole lives are one big lie. How pathetic that their entire existence is based off finding people who are easy targets to manipulate into believing their bs.
 

Ronin

MyPTSD Pro
See, Brandon...

Your own words are all the reasons they are not behind anyone else.
As you yourself said... They are pathetic.

They could control you very deep only because their child, and close.

They cannot do the same degree of control with others. Promise.

And? People don't like being strung along very much.
Even you bolted off hard (good job, there, now get safe and better please, becos what better way to spit in their face?)

You got this.
Normal people outta them aren't your enemy.

It's okay if all is confusing for a damn long while. That will settle. But DO look out for the good ones. Not for the liars.

Also bc Shit breaks down, actual big deal?
It's only the good ones mattering.
Not who lied, or how much.
 

TruthSeeker

MyPTSD Pro
Its truly insane!! They lie so much that they cover up their lies with more lies and then when you catch them lying about it they ask if you have been feeling ok or if you have been taking your medicine or better yet they just label you a mentally ill person. Then everyone gives you stupid looks and you know that they have been telling other people bullshit, but of course they lie about that too. So you will never really get any sort of honesty out of them whatsoever. Their whole lives are one big lie. How pathetic that their entire existence is based off finding people who are easy targets to manipulate into believing their bs.
You are spot on. Many newbies were once easy targets, and younger ones, often just indoctrinated and loyal followers.....they've been educated in the "Word of God...Way of God" and it goes on generation after generation. Remember, people in cults stake their behavior on the afterlife....kinda like they got to slog through this life to prove themselves worthy of a wondrous spot in heaven-or wherever eternity. They will even go so far to say, if you've strayed, that you are getting a ticket to hell or some kinda punishment.
Yes, feel sorry for them.....because they really don't know....and they are only allowed to see life in a very narrow way..................and then run, as fast as you can, run the other way and don't look back. You need to focus on daily taking care of you. Good luck.....keep the focus on health and safety. They will manage in their limited lives.
 

Friday

Moderator
1. What @Ronin said.

2.
To many weird thinga have been happening I've been getting weird calls telling me prescriptions are ready for me under an unknown name. And then I went to the store the othee day tk get some work done under my computer when they finished they called me and told me it was under a different name. The exact name from the call I got the other day telling me I had a prescription. I have been hearing people reference songs when talking to me that I had just listened to a day ago. I was driving today and somone came behind me while driving and set off their car alarm. It sounds crazy and paranoid, but I think I might be being targeted.
Occams Razor = The simplest solution is usually the correct one.

- Rx’s ready under a different name? Usually = identity theft -OR- a simple clerical error. Someone used your insurance information to fill their prescriptions, or your phone number was accidentally entered into their profile. In either case? When their Rx was ready, you were called. Because your phone number is attached to either your insurance info, or their profile.

- Public computer coming up under someone else’s name... This is sounding more and more like a shared or transposed phone number, rather than deliberate insurance fraud.

^^^Both of these^^^ Mean you need to straighten things out with the pharmacy and the store. Because 2 people have the same “unique” ID. Whether on purpose (identity theft) or accidental (dyslexia, transposed number by the clerk, shared phone number, etc.) ... it needs sorting on their end. Because their computers are wrong.

- People referencing songs? Is very very normal. Because people listen to the same music. I’d really just shrug this one off.

- Someone’s car alarm goes off behind you? Again, that happens. I once drove for 45 minutes with the car alarm going off (damn thing was stuck) to get to the mechanic. Can’t even tell you how many people were like... Did you know your alarm is going off? :facepalm: Nooooooo. This blaring ungodly thing??? :hilarious: Aaargh. Electrical issue. Came and went. Frustrated my mechanic no end, because it was integral. Couldn’t just remove the alarm, without replacing the entire electrical system. He periodically threatened to hit it with an EMP or to back over the durn thing with a dump truck. Great guy, my mechanic.
... Now one method of getting people’s attention -for various purposes- is to set off one or more car alarms. The question to ask yourself is this: What happened AFTER the car alarm got your attention? If nothing happened? No one used your moment of distraction to run you off the road (bad purpose, to keep things simple), the person didn’t wave you over to talk/let you know your wheel was wobbly (good purpose), et cetera? Then either they were not trying to get your attention (but someone else’s), or the poor person was stuck in a car with their alarm blaring freaking people out driving near them.

I didn't mean what did you do to deserve it, I meant is there a group of people who would target you?
@Brandon ... This.

I was on the receiving end of my ex husband & his friends (The TeenyTinyWeinerSquad ) for several years. In 2 years alone my house was broken into hundreds of times (2-3 times a week x 52 x 2)... but there wasn’t a single area of my life that went un-f*cked-with.

It made it incredibly vital that I did NOT assign all the random problems of life to their influence. Because random shit happens. Coincidence happens. Clerical errors happen. They f*cked with my life MORE than enough, I didn’t need to be assigning them super-powers, in addition to what they were actually doing. People banging on my walls and windows screaming at me that I’m a c*nt and a liar? Yep. That’s them. People setting off car alarms down the street? Probably not them, just drunk college kids having fun. Slashed tires right before a job interview? Them. Dead battery, probably not them. Every call I make being rerouted to a porn shop, brothel, and an angry Chinese family? (I really do mean EVERY call, I could hand someone my phone and they’d get the same girls hot for you blah blah blah as I did). So them. (My ex is in tech, hacking & cloning my phone was one of his favorite tricks.). One call? I misdialed.

Normal people may be able to be all WOW the interconnectedness of blah blah blah, or spin off on a conspiracy theory to two, just to keep life interesting. (IE making connections that aren’t really there, for entertainment purposes). If you’re actually being stalked? You can’t do that. You HAVE to draw a hard line between the annoyed (irritated what’s really happening) and the paranoid (afraid of what isnt). Or you will go batshit crazy. Because not everything is connected. But fear can make it seem like everything is connected.
 

Ronin

MyPTSD Pro
Serious kudos to not physically self harming.

And to actually talking about those feelings to people, I get it is super hard and even more hard opening up, not knowing who to trust / trust with any of that.

One trick I found helps with the nagging something else is on, is it can be on. Let it play out. Without letting it get to me.

If the thing shows itself / ups the grade? Gives me more to work with.

If the same ol is on? It means I don't have to pay it no mind.

I mean, old enemies are good enemies.
Annoying, but good. You know them.

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So if all that goes wrong is a mixed up rx?
Even if it were big bad people...
It's just my meds wrong.

Bigger problem for the insurance who will have to sort it out, too.
And if I get serious sick or worse?
Even more their problem, they have a body to explain. :sneaky:

So it's *gonna* be just the rx. For their own sake.

Truly. It's not bad. It's just a messed up paper. You got better stuff to do with your time. Like looking for safe housing. ;)
 

Sideways

Sponsor
Just want to add another voice of support saying reach out for support - the NAMI resources suggested earlier in the thread.

Thing about paranoid thoughts - it's not that what you're seeing isn't there (that would be delusion or hallucination). It's that the meaning your brain is assigning to things is off.

For example? You did hear that song being referenced, and the car alarm go off. But your mind is misinterpreting what those things mean.

That's something that has really good prospects of being treatable. So reach out and get some support with this. Because, when your brain does that thing of giving something the wrong interpretation, like the car alarm? That causes huge amounts of internal distress - it can make perfectly safe and ordinary situations seem incredibly unsafe and frightening.

And you don't need to be dealing with that distress every day. You just don't. It is treatable.

And getting that part sorted out will give you a whole lot more space internally to deal with the big stuff, like your family, which is causing incredibly deep scars that you deserve to heal from.

So reach out for help. Get the straight up treatable stuff done and dusted. Then start the work of rebuilding your life, without all the pain you're carrying around.
 

Brandon

New Here
Serious kudos to not physically self harming.

And to actually talking about those feelings to people, I get it is super hard and even more hard opening up, not knowing who to trust / trust with any of that.

One trick I found helps with the nagging something else is on, is it can be on. Let it play out. Without letting it get to me.

If the thing shows itself / ups the grade? Gives me more to work with.

If the same ol is on? It means I don't have to pay it no mind.

I mean, old enemies are good enemies.
Annoying, but good. You know them.

//

So if all that goes wrong is a mixed up rx?
Even if it were big bad people...
It's just my meds wrong.

Bigger problem for the insurance who will have to sort it out, too.
And if I get serious sick or worse?
Even more their problem, they have a body to explain. :sneaky:

So it's *gonna* be just the rx. For their own sake.

Truly. It's not bad. It's just a messed up paper. You got better stuff to do with your time. Like looking for safe housing. ;)
Yeah my main focus right now is finding a better job and getting housing&benefits from the place I'm at now. Seeing a case manager soon so hopefully she will be able to help me.
 
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