Feel Like I'm Losing My Mind, Kind Of Scared

[Deleted member 541]

Be good to YOURSELF,,,

 

[hodge]

Well, I made it to the end of our alley when the sciatica kicked in.

I just had a bite of a donut in case my sugar's low.

I'm not as scared now. I think I'll be okay. I think I just need to not worry about doing anything.

I took that 0.25 mg Ativan an hour ago. I think I'm going to take another 0.25. It can't hurt and might help more.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@hodge again, my suggestion would be distracting yourself. But the med isn't a bad choice either. When I used to get panic attacks, it would feel like my brain was hyjacked. I couldn't for a complete thought no matter what I tried. I felt like my body wasnt my body, it was like I was detatched from it somehow. Then my movements would become all f*cked up, like I had MS or something. It wouldn't be a fluid movement, but a jerky one, like my brain was misfiring causing my movements to short circuit. Freaked me out, till I learned to just let it run its course...

Are you feeling better yet????

 

[hodge]

I have this odd kind of motivation to make dinner, even though it's early and even though I usually dread making dinner.

What the hell, maybe I will. No rule says you can't have dinner at 2 p.m., lol. Somehow I feel like smelling chicken broth, canned tomatoes and lemon juice cooking feels comforting to me.

I still feel a bit dizzy, but not to the point where I couldn't do that. It's more of the disorientation in my brain rather than a physical dizziness.

 

[Deleted member 541]

Then I would go make dinner....... it will help to do something, and if your in the mood, get dinner over with and then relax....

 

[hodge]

Well, I made dinner and we ate. I feel less disoriented. I did okay, except that I opened cream of chicken soup instead of chicken broth, then just put the cream soup in a container and in the freezer, then dropped the onion. But otherwise, okay. The situation seems to be fading in intensity.

Weirdly, my carpal tunnel pain has been much diminished during this episode. I even lifted a heavy skillet without my wrist brace on.

Thank you so much, @She Cat! It sure helped a lot to hear from you and to giggle at your jokes!!

 

[hodge]

Better. I feel that kind of post-anxiety exhaustion/fogginess you get, but better. I've been lying on the couch with my eyes closed in order to be closer to hubby.

I just managed to pay a bill online that was due, but everything else can wait. I hope I get more than 2-3 hours of sleep tonight and can tackle more things tomorrow.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@hodge. Glad I could help. You've done the same for me throughout the years we've been on the forum. Glad you're feeling better.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Hey, sorta late here but I'm glad that you made it through :)

And that dinner really got my attention, today I had a really shitty dinner meal :p

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am glad you are okay now. Panic attacks are the worst! I am glad that @She Cat was there for you.:hug:

 

[Deleted member 541]

@hodge Hope that you are feeling a whole lot better today!!!!!

 

[hodge]

It's been a rough week. Tons of paperwork (work, taxes, and Medicaid renewal paperwork), which really tries my brain. But it's all done and submitted now. Friday is definitely going to be a pyjama day. I only got about two and a half hours of sleep last night, and, of course, now I'm so overtired, I'm not sleepy yet.

@She Cat, thank you again so much. I am so grateful you happened to be here and help me through this. It was a truly bad episode and I don't know how I would have gotten through it without your helpful grounding suggestions and kickass attitude!

Sael! Thank you so much for your good wishes. I wish you could be here for our dinner every night (even on the nights I don't manage to make dinner).

Thank you, @gizmo. I'm glad, too. The wonderful thing about this community is that someone's almost always around. I go days sometimes without checking in and feel bad when I find out someone I know was in crisis while I was gone, but so incredibly relieved to see others stepped in. I think we all do what we can when we can. :-)