Feeling Dead Inside

[moshpitmunkey]

Not much more I can say but that. Life is hard.

 

[Coffee]

Don't know what to answer, but I'm listening / reading. Hope you'll get away from this rough feeling of hopelessness quickly. It's hard work to do though, trying to keep the head over the water... I suppose you've already tried listen to music / phone a friend / see a movie / read a nice book... ?

 

[rosey]

echoing @Coffee and adding yes really hard you are not in it alone though although it feels like it right? take care and trust that this feeling will pass.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

Thank you @rosey and @Coffee . It has been very difficult to keep my head above water. I've been seeing my t regularly, talking with friends and doing other things like music and reading to fight through it. I appreciate your kind words and advice. Trying to not give in and keep fighting

 

[sun seeker]

It depends exactly what your version of feeling dead inside is like, so this may or may not help, but sometimes when I feel like that, connecting with nature helps. Hugging a tree, feeling the wind in my face, getting my hands in the dirt... any of that appeal to you?

 

[aut555]

Dead is the same as numb? It's ok, you must be overwhelmed with something. Is there something that predated this, meeting t, triggers? Is there something coming up you are dreading? We are listening. I want to send you a compassion and understanding basket to help you during this time.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

Dead is the same as numb? It's ok, you must be overwhelmed with something. Is there something that preda...

Possibly? It feels like something in me has just died and it's no longer there. Like feeling hollow or nothing there. I am facing a big crisis in my personal life and maybe that's what brought it on. Before this I was already feeling flat and hopeless and depressed but now everything is intensified. Thank you for your compassion and understanding

 

[moshpitmunkey]

It depends exactly what your version of feeling dead inside is like, so this may or may not help, bu...

I've went for walks but maybe hugging a tree or laying in the grass would be a good thing for me.. what does feeling dead inside look like to you?

 

[sun seeker]

If I said I felt dead inside I might mean numb and dissociated, with the sense of painful feelings underneath the numbness. I might also mean I feel so depressed that I don't want to move or do anything. Again there, I'd be avoiding some intense feelings - which sometimes we have to do; as we here all know, sometimes what we feel is just too much.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

Sometimes what we feel is too much.... Really feeling that right now.

 

[aut555]

@moshpitmunkey Is there someone you can talk to about this personal crisis? Do you wish to here? Do you think you need antidepressants for short-term until the crisis is resolved? I am stuck in a two year + divorce from "Lucifer". Then l am working through all the trama and l am on the fourth attorney, another clown law office. At some point, now l have to laugh, and say really, who decided to stick me with all the crap in the universe. We are here, and by telling us your story, we can try to help you get to the next level of the life game. Maybe talking some of these feelings through will give you some release. It's hard to carry all that weight on your shoulders.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

@aut555 I really appreciate this message. I'm in therapy right now, twice a week due to increase in suicide ideation and worsening depression. I think I could benefit from being on antidepressants but not sure if I qualify for them without insurance or without speaking to a psychiatrist. I don't have a primary care physician so I don't even know where I would start. I just feel like this last crisis has truly killed something inside of me that idk how to get back. Family, personal relationship, all falling apart. Feeling hopeless lost confused rejected alone. Thank you for reaching out and im so sorry for everything you are going through. Please stay strong and know that I'm here for you as well