Friends Operation Happening Right Now

[Bundlesofnerves]

I woke up crying.

Never had anyone die on me. My friend better not be.

Dead man walking is going through my brain. Beautiful song, but last night saying goodbye felt final.

I'm not usually supersticious. But the subject of death has me being supersticious! Don't mention death! Don't mention friends name in the same sentence!

If he dies on the operating table, f*cking hell. I don't know how I'd handle it.

So I'm going to get some grounding stuff for the rest of the day. Talk to my therapist. Keep acting out to a minimum.

I want him to come out better. I want to still talk to him, to have more good times.

He's atheist. So am I. It sucks for atheists during this time as it sucks for believers.

I'm up and down. I'm in f*cking pain and I am handling it. My brain is going out in odd places. I'm thinking it's all normal, this.

C'est la vie.

Well the bastard had better f*cking survive.

 

[Ikor]

I'm keeping you, and your friend, in my heart and thoughts...
Sending loving energy to you both,
With love,
Deer

 

[Bundlesofnerves]

Thank you, Deer. Much appreciated.

 

[Agazu]

I'm with you! ((((((((((((((((((((BundlesofNerves))))))))))))))))))))))))
Love,
Deer

 

[Onoja]

You didn't tell, what kind of surgery he's undergoing? Of course, every surgery bear a risk. But whether it's a super serious brain, spine, heart etc surgery, or "just" a gallbladder, appendix, makes quite the difference. And what also is important, is whether he's a high risk person (smoker, severe overweight, diabetes, history of heart problems or not. So with my question, I'M trying to find out, whether this is a super dangerous operation, or not. Respectively, if you're just afraid, or if you are so overwhelmed, that you've already started to only create worst case scenario?

[QUOTE="Bundlesofnerves, post: 906280"]I want to still talk to him, to have more good times.[/QUOTE]
...To be honest, I don't like this one. As it sounds, that you're more worried about the outcome for yourself. You want him to get better, so that you can have "more good times" as you clearly wrote. This post is not really about him and his illness (or whatever he may have.) No, on closer inspection, this post is about you, your fears and most of all it's about what you want for yourself!

 

[Malepov]

@ Onoja...Love is often a selfish thing. We need people, sometimes in a needy, selfish sort of way. That's how it is to be human. This guy's an important part of the OP's life. How is bringing up your dislike of that supposed to help the OP?

...@OP, I hope your friend pulls through. Losing people is devastating...and not avoidable. But I hope that this is not the day. Both for your buddy's sake and yours.
...If it is the day...feel the grief. Don't try to wall it off. Let it roll when it hits. Grieve fully.
...People are treasures in your life. Unique treasures. Savor them.
:hug:. *Crosses fingers*

 

[Cuzipet]

Get used to disappointment, Onoja, because you're not worth it.

Keep your sack of garbage brain droppings to a minimum on this thread. Your narcissistic qualities aren't appreciated or tolerated.

You've got BPD and not PSTD written all over your face.