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blackemerald1
MyPTSD Pro
This week I've refused to speak to some family, hung up on several other who cannot handle the discussion not being about them and their problems for a few minutes and then tried to drown me in platitudes that did nothing..... but make me very friggin angry!
But at the same time I really lost my cool with one of my children over something too silly. So I've apologised but clearly I'm not okay and on a hair trigger.
I don't want to get out of bed and when I do I want to go straight back. I feel really tired and listless.
I don't want to look after my relatives at the moment because I'm in such a dark place and I'm fuming with resentment that I have been carrying the bulk of the responsibilities for them for way too long and I have a large family with numerous siblings who actually should stop critiquing me and do some hard, practical work. When I told them I had to turn down the job they could barely contain their happiness and commented that it simply meant I had more time to help them out and spend time looking after them. aaaargh!! So clearly they didn't want me to take up employment!
I've been looking at jobs but not really. I've sent out some feelers looking for courses to help lift my skill levels but man... they are expensive and sound a bit bogus to be honest.
I feel like crap and I want to feel better but not sure how.
My dog is giving me a fairly wide radius though coming in for a pat and a smooch now and then. I must be exuding bad stuff....
But at the same time I really lost my cool with one of my children over something too silly. So I've apologised but clearly I'm not okay and on a hair trigger.
I don't want to get out of bed and when I do I want to go straight back. I feel really tired and listless.
I don't want to look after my relatives at the moment because I'm in such a dark place and I'm fuming with resentment that I have been carrying the bulk of the responsibilities for them for way too long and I have a large family with numerous siblings who actually should stop critiquing me and do some hard, practical work. When I told them I had to turn down the job they could barely contain their happiness and commented that it simply meant I had more time to help them out and spend time looking after them. aaaargh!! So clearly they didn't want me to take up employment!
I've been looking at jobs but not really. I've sent out some feelers looking for courses to help lift my skill levels but man... they are expensive and sound a bit bogus to be honest.
I feel like crap and I want to feel better but not sure how.
My dog is giving me a fairly wide radius though coming in for a pat and a smooch now and then. I must be exuding bad stuff....