Had that dream again

[IamFree]

Mother was murdered. I had that dream again that she was not really. and it is someone else in that hole in the ground. then i wake up and remember mother was murdered and I hope i do not have that dream again but maybe I always will.

 

[Friday]

I have a love-hate relationship with those dreams. For just the barest moment... Everything is okay... And then it's ripped all away again.

Very little is as painful as remembering what happiness felt like.

 

[IamFree]

I don't know what it is maybe there is some part of me that is still not able to digest it. I would prefer to not keep on going over it but every time I have hope I wont have it again I do. I am starting to learn in this business of trauma is maybe some things will go but maybe some things will be forever.