Day Treatment programs are meant to be easy-going so that anyone can attend and feel safe, even while coming out of a crisis situation. It's all about providing safe structure, preventing isolation, and encouraging positive interactions with the world. If you compare it to college, sure, it will be disappointing but, if you need it in the moment, it makes a nice safe mini-vacation from stress.
Positive energy and expectations lead to a positive outcome. And, yes, it's possible to go in miserable but feel more positive as the program moves along.
For me it's not safe, I feel really really bad there, not only bored. Probably if activities where more challenging my mind would be too busy to make me feel that bad.
I need to keep my mind busy in order to don't drive crazy. The only times I feel good is when I am at lab doing chemistry stuff...
Probably if this forum were in Spanish I would express myself so easily I would be too overwhelmed before finishing and It would end with me not posting anything. I can't shut up my brain, If it not busy enough thinking, learning or expressing myself, it will
torture me.
I am going to tell this to my psychiatrist -maybe he doesn't know why I refused to participate in activities-, I am writing something about the dextromethorphan, also I want to tell him I would like to go back to psychotherapy.
I don't know what you mean by 'move along', but activities are always the same. The program is the same.
Well, I don't mean this to anger you - but you clearly don't know how to actually handle medication if you believe that drinking a bottle of cough syrup is somehow going to be good for your mental health.
I don't think that. I knew the risks and I just took them. -I am studying a degree in pharmacy-. I had some relief from dextromethorphan, I still have some mild euphoria mixed with my normal fear of everything.
I looked at my school calendar and I felt excited, this is good, I really want to learn.
I don't know how it works in your country; would a private doctor be willing to take you on for free, or for a very reduced scale? Is there anyone at all at the hospital where the day program is that you could lean on a little more, get their help in getting more specialized care?
Double no... I cannot afford almost anything, I barely have enough money to buy food -cheap food-.
I truly wish you find some peace, I know what it's like to be in and out of institutions and looked at like a non-person. I hope you get some relief soon and please know I'm rooting for you!
Thank you. I like reading what you -all- write. It's insightful.
I try to listen to what you -all- say even if I may be really stubborn.
BeeBee-I totally agree with what you are saying about the day hospital and know that the psych hospitals do more damage than good. It exposes you to much worse than you have experienced and frankly, some of the employees could benefit more than most of us. I would like the administrators to be put there for a few days and see if they changed how things were done.
I also agree with others-that the day hospital also provides structure and prevents isolation , which can be really important for you right now.
Could you set in your mind, or pretend that you are the intern or writing a book on the program, and instead of feeling like the patient, use the time to be learning from the professionals? That way instead of just doing the math or coloring or another busy activity, you could kind of study what the staff is doing. You could be objective. Who knows, you really might end up contributing to change in this field one day.
The staff just give you the activities and that's it. It's boring. Most of them aren't nurses but assistants. I can do much more during practice lab hours at college.
I tried it, really did when I didn't have lessons, but I just got angry and frustrated. I can try again but I doubt there would be any difference unless something changes, this is why I will tell my psychiatrist all of this.
