Having Hard Time

[Eagle]

My t and I opened up some huge things today. I am feeling broken in pieces. Usually feel like I will make it through somehow but tonight just not there. Very negatvie thoughts and that is not like me either. Broken and cannot handle this information. Need help but dont want to deal with 3D ppl and their solutions. I have taken my meds and I am just lost this is not like me but these memories are new Its too d*** much. Can anyone relate? I was gone in fb along time this afternoon then body didnt work for hours more. remember most of t but wasnt really there either. Thsi memory is too much thtas all. Hope someone understands this. Eagle

 

[baileysemt]

Hope that you have gotten some rest.

Often it would take me several days to process what we covered in therapy, and I would be darn irritable while chewing on it too.

It was funny, even though I felt like crap as I was facing and working through all that shit, overall it was a net gain over time. Overall I was feeling better. Slowly -- gradually -- but overall I was doing better.

Try to be patient with yourself. There will be really rough spots. That's a normal part of the process.

I always found rest to be very helpful. I couldn't do anything, I couldn't function in vertical life, but I could lay in bed and rest. Even if I didn't sleep (although I did usually sleep), just laying there staring at the TV and chewing on stuff mentally, was doable. Frankly my brain needed all that energy; even sitting up used up far too much precious oomph. My brain chewed it all up and left me exhausted. So, if you can, maybe curl up with a nice soft blankie, someplace you are safe, cocoon yourself and just let yourself work through it.

Bailey

 

[Eagle]

Thanks Bailey. Trying but rough morning. I appreciate your reply.
Eagle

 

[logan]

the wind up time to the t appointment and then what i call it the kick back time wicth should be called the kick in the ass time or bomara it comes back and hits us harder just find a way to get your're self out that pain:dontknow:

 

[nathan]

most every time i go to therapy lately, i come out of it feeling utterly destroyed. we have been going very deep lately. it usually takes a few days for me to recuperate, but i always feel stronger after i come around. i think its just part of the process. its necessary to go through that pain in order to make progress. however this is only my experience. yours will surely be different, but i think how your feeling is pretty normal. it just takes some time readjust. hope you feel better.

take care,
nate

 

[Marlene]

Eagle,

Not to sound like a broken record, but what the others have said is how I feel after a therapy appointment. Really rough for a few days while I process what we spoke about and then gradually better.

I read somewhere here that a member wrote that the hard work comes between our appointments. It's very true.

Lisa

 

[tude]

Ahh, funny you should post this today. I needed it. I saw my therapist yesterday before work- bad idea. Like Nathan said, I understand pain is part of the process. Afterwards, I had a difficult time switching gears and get somewhat grounded again. Although I haven't got sick and tired of practicing coping skills yet, just before work isn't the ideal time.

I,too, feel kind of lost today and pretty numb. I slept on and off today and digested only enough of what was discussed yesterday to stay numb.

 

[Deleted member 93]

Ditto on the others here. You know if you came out of therapy feeling rosy they are not doing their job. You are obviously tackling issues and that is the point. Keep doing it and make sure you have time to recover between sessions. Therapy is hard and it feels horrible, just make sure you get enough of a break in between sessions to feel even better than last. Good luck!

 

[Eagle]

Thanks everyone. T is hard work and ptsd makes us work so hard. Know that for a fact. Thanks for the encouragement. Still struggling with symptoms today. Getting even more memories so this weeks t will likely be very intense.

Eagle

 

[morgan]

Hang in there Eagle. You are in my thoughts.
Take care, Morgan