somethingsomething
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So my last roommate (a girl) wanted to move somewhere else, and so she found a guy to sublease her place. Which I really didn't think would be a problem (I'm a girl), so I didn't say anything. I mean I've dealt A LOT with my trust issues with men, and I've improved significantly to the point where I don't ever feel bothered being around men. Or so I thought.
Now that this guy has moved in a week ago I've noticed my anxiety is through the roof. He really is a super nice guy and there is absolutely nothing threatening about him whatsoever. But yet, if he does one thing wrong, I feel panicked and freaked out. And to make matters worse, I always end up taking it out on him. I don't yell, but I know I come off like a bitch who doesn't like him. I just started realizing yesterday that I'm constantly waiting for him to screw me over somehow.
To make matters worse, I was severely triggered yesterday after seeing a movie. For the first time in years, I broke down completely. I don't think I've ever felt that unsafe, scared and anxious since the PTSD symptoms really started becoming noticeable 8 or so years ago. I feel like I'm taking 10 steps backwards. I started realizing too that I can't look a man in the eye anymore. (Like on the street, friendly conversation, stuff like that.) I feel extremely closed off.
I do feel better right now, but living with a guy is still stressing me out. I don't know what to do. I don't see my therapist till Wednesday. Should I explain to him my situation so he doesn't get too offended? Because I feel really bad that I'm taking this out on him when it's not even remotely his fault.
Now that this guy has moved in a week ago I've noticed my anxiety is through the roof. He really is a super nice guy and there is absolutely nothing threatening about him whatsoever. But yet, if he does one thing wrong, I feel panicked and freaked out. And to make matters worse, I always end up taking it out on him. I don't yell, but I know I come off like a bitch who doesn't like him. I just started realizing yesterday that I'm constantly waiting for him to screw me over somehow.
To make matters worse, I was severely triggered yesterday after seeing a movie. For the first time in years, I broke down completely. I don't think I've ever felt that unsafe, scared and anxious since the PTSD symptoms really started becoming noticeable 8 or so years ago. I feel like I'm taking 10 steps backwards. I started realizing too that I can't look a man in the eye anymore. (Like on the street, friendly conversation, stuff like that.) I feel extremely closed off.
I do feel better right now, but living with a guy is still stressing me out. I don't know what to do. I don't see my therapist till Wednesday. Should I explain to him my situation so he doesn't get too offended? Because I feel really bad that I'm taking this out on him when it's not even remotely his fault.
