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How Do I Stop The Rape Flashbacks?

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If you think your mom might react badly or if your rapist/abuser is a family member, you might need help from a professional with disclosing it to her, or choosing not to just yet. The MAIN thing is for you to be safe and stay safe. Again I would advise contacting the right charity so you get help without it being reported until you want that. When you've been raped it is important also to feel like things are in your control.
 
I forgot to say that these charities all have helplines or hotlines so you can call them or e-mail them for advice without disclosing who you are. In the US, you could start with RAINN, if you are in the UK it would be ChildLine, if you are in Australia, I hope someone else here can tell you who to ring.

Alex, you might want to consider changing you username, so that you are more anonymous. Then you can talk entirely freely on here.
 
I forgot to say that these charities all have helplines or hotlines so you can call them or e-mail them for advice without disclosing who you are. In the US, you could start with RAINN, if you are in the UK it would be ChildLine, if you are in Australia,.

I am in the US. Thank you. You're right, I probably should change it.
 
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@Solara - I'm a mandatory reporter. I work with minors. I'm no expert by any means - but I am familiar with the laws and reality of mandatory reporting for minors in the US. (I can't speak for other countries.) I go off my own training, experience, and this kind of information like here: [DLMURL]https://www.childwelfare.gov/systemwide/laws_policies/statutes/manda.pdf#Page=5&view=Fit[/DLMURL] I was indeed trying to speak about mandatory reporting realities for professionals working with minors.

Let me try to better explain what I probably very badly explained before:

If a 16 year old came to me and asked to be tested for STDs, and said nothing more, I am not sure that this alone would be enough for me (or any other professional under mandatory reporting laws) to suspect abuse. That is the point I was trying to make before. It common for a 16 year old to get tested for STDs without having the physician doing the testing to be compelled by mandatory reporting laws to inform the authorities about it.

His therapist would not have much to report as well if a 16 year old expressed concerns that if they shared more, the therapist would have to report. It's simply a discussion about fears of talking about specific events of trauma. If the therapist did report based on that, if the therapist did inform authorities that a 16 year old asked their therapist more about mandatory reporting laws and expressed their concerns they have been through trauma they are scared to share because they don't want the police or their mother to find out - frankly, that's not enough information for anyone to really do anything about. It's not enough to trigger much action. Maybe it should, but it doesn't really happen. Frankly, I have seen much more substantial information be reported and the authorities do very little about it... (which is seriously a problem, but a totally different topic.)

The reality is that nothing much actually would happens if I reported to Child Protective Services that a 16 year old was looking to get tested for STDs and that made me suspicious of child abuse. Sure, it would be nice if they did do more, but it's just not what happens. They are swamped and they look for cases with more than just a 16 year old asking for testing for STDs before they jump in and start investigating.

If a 16 year old teenager told me *more* than a request to be tested for STDs, then yes, I would have concerns and there is a high chance I would have to report and there is more of a possibility that child protective services would do more. I have had to report on a number of occasions as I work with at risk children.

I can't speak to what a physician would need to tell a parent in order to have permission do to STD testing. That varies by state and form of payment. Some states offer confidential clinics and testing for teens, some don't...

The reality of mandatory reporting is scary to young victims, but we all should remember that the mandatory reporting requirement is there to protect the person who was hurt and to protect against possible future or other current victims. I hope we can agree that Alex needs help more than his abuser or his mom need to be protected from the truth of what he has been through - and I hope we can all agree that it's still scary and hard to share even when mandatory reporting laws are not applicable.

@Alex - I agree with @Echo - RAINN is a great organization and they have an online hotline in which is totally anonymous. They can't report when they don't even know who you are. They also can tell you when they have to report and when they don't.

It's also a great idea to change your username here - then you are protected in a number of ways. It should be pretty easy to do.
 
@Justmehere,
Don't worry about the person who is abusing you getting into trouble. He is the one in the wrong and doesn't deserve your protection. I know what you are facing is very scary, but if you don't stand up now and get the help you need, then things are only going to get worse. I don't want to scare you, but there are a lot of people here on the forum who have been dealing with PTSD for a lifetime....don't become one of these people. Reach out for help now so that you can stop the damage and start the healing process..
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Thank you. I don't see him very often, luckily. Maybe once a month. And, he would have to be, alone with me. I've tried my hardest to ensure that there is at least one other person present in addition to him and myself. I just don't think I'm ready to tell my mom yet. It would be very embarrassing, and our relationship would never go back to how it was prior. Also, she hasn't been feeling well lately, she has some sort of illness, I'm not sure what it is; she hasn't told me. I don't want to spring it on her at such a bad time.

As for telling others, I don't know if I have another friend I could trust with such a burden. I'm not exactly a social butterfly at school, I'm more into books. :)

Thank you very much.
 
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As for telling others, I don't know if I have another friend I could trust with such a burden
It would be better to tell someone equipped to help you (a therapist or a helpline).

As a child sexual abuse survivor, I told friends when in my teens while it was happening....they didn't help (I think they didn't know how to help) and it hurt me at the time because it felt like they didn't care enough to help.
 
It would be better to tell someone equipped to help you (a therapist or a helpline).
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I want to tell a counsoler, but here's what I think would happen.

I tell my counsoler, she tells my mom, my mom gets upset, she would believe she is at fault. She would call the police, the police would call Child Protective Services. I'd imagine that CPS would take me away from my mom, I would have to go to court, testify, and all that stuff. I wold have to have the guilt for the rest of my life, for him being in prison. Wouldn't it be more stressful to go through all that police and court stuff? :(

Thank you.
 
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@Alex Callen - if you ring RAINN none of that will happen. You will be anonymous and they can advise you over the phone what services they can offer you. You may find you can see a therapist for free and again in confidence. I don't know what they offer exactly, because I am in the UK, but maybe you could find out without giving your name at this stage, so you know the facts.

If you only see this abuser once a month, then far more likely he/she would be banned from coming anywhere near you. But that is just speculation. I can't imagine they would take you away from your mum unless she is the one harming you.

Let us know how it goes with ringing them; that is what they are there for. They may pass you over to a service specifically for teens or children/teens, but they should be a first port of call.
 
Unless your mom is actively abusing you herself right now, CPS is not going to take you away from her.

Tell your counselor you are scared of telling her something and tell her your fears and your counselor can explain what could and couldn't happen and what she is and isn't going to do... You don't have to tell her what happened to talk about your fears of elling her what happened.

Another way to think about it is to consider that he could be hurting others right now and that if anything was done by the police to stop him, it's because you did the brave and right thing. Not because you did anything wrong.

Only 8 percent of rapes are prosecuted, and only 3 percent go to jail. It is possible you may have to testify at a trial but very few cases that are prosecuted even go trail trial (96 percent of cases are resolved through a plea deal). Check this out here - https://www.rainn.org/get-information/statistics/reporting-rates

RAINN is totally anonymous. http:// You could tell them a lot about what happened on their online hotline.

Your flashbacks are your brain's way of reminding you that someone who is still around you had been dangerous and really horribly hurt you.
 
I am also a mandated reporter and I've had to go through numerous training sessions concerning allegations of abuse.

If there are physical, verbal, or psychological changes and alarms that prompt the reporter to suspect abuse, then the reporter must do that. If there WAS an investigation (and @Justmehere is correct in saying that the authorities are never apt to respond), the authorities would have to start from ground zero because @Alex Callen never specified who his abuser was, and he probably won't tell anyone.

I would advise that you to give up your abuser for your recovery's sake, but I understand that you don't want to hurt your mother. This is your choice to make. However, none of this is your fault. You didn't ask for the abuse, and it is unfair for an adult to hold this power over you -- especially since you're only a child. I am just urging you to understand that you are worth more than how this individual has treated you. Yes, people on this forum can support you and offer words of comfort and advice -- but, in the end, we can't control what is happening to you. I can only say for you to research these resources and the information that we're giving you.

As everyone has stipulated, RAINN would be an excellent resource for you to tap since they have experience and experts in these matters. In addition, it might give you peace of mind and a little more power over your situation. In each of my stints with therapists and psychiatrists, they've always gone over the ground rules for reporting abuse (The Three Hurts.) So, even adults are not exempt from the fear you've encountered, but your fear is a lot more grave since you're so young.

Stay strong.
 
If there are physical, verbal, or psychological changes and alarms that prompt the reporter to suspect abuse, then the reporter must do that. If there WAS an investigation (and @Justmehere is correct in saying that the authorities are never apt to respond), the authorities would have to start from ground zero because @Alex Callen never specified who his abuser was, and he probably won't tell anyone.

I would advise that you to give up your abuser for your recovery's sake, but I understand that you don't want to hurt your mother. This is your choice to make. However, none of this is your fault.

Thank you very much for all the help and information. Sadly, I don't have a phone (of my own) to call RAINN. I genuinely appreciate all of the help you all have provided, it has helped quite a bit; especially the grounding things. Although, I can't help but think it was somewhat my fault for this happening.

When I was 10 or so, he was very nice to me. He bought me things that I wanted, if I asked, he was always a kind person all around. At the time, I was completely oblivious to what he was planning, I just took it as kindness. He was nice for a few months, then one day, he said that he wanted me to pay back all the money that I made him spend. Obviously, I was just a child, I had no source of income, I told him there was no way I could pay him. Then, he suggested an alternative form of payment... And that is how it started... I can't help but feel at fault for it, because, it is. Since then, I've never accepted money, gifts, or anything from friends and such. I get really angry at them if they even suggest it, because it takes me back to when, it happened. I scream at them, just for trying to give me something, and I hate that. I guess that's just a 'trigger', as you call it.

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Sorry for getting into so much detail, I got carried away.
 
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