I'm really struggling at the moment. Feel helpless and Hopeless. I think part of the problem is I've got no purpose in life. Also my medication is making me feel like this. Everyday is like groundhog day. I don't know how to manage it.
I’m in the f*ck it & f*ck off frame of mind at the moment.
Which can be useful / it allows me to get shit done.
The HEALTHIER version of this is known as ‘containment’? I’m not in a particularly healthy place ATM, so sitting on the lid of a trunk full of monsters is better than the alternative. (If I actually GET shit done, if not I’ll be cursing at myself for being stupid. Because it’s waaaaaay worse when the box gets kicked wide open after being shut for a time). There’s middle ground between shoving everything in a box and sitting on it, and being completely overwhelmed and brought to my knees &/or face first on the floor in non-functional-land. But middle ground has to be worked for. And I don’t have that (I was going to say ‘in me’ but the more accurate term would be ‘available to me’).