Poll How Do You Self Medicate?

[Whyteferret]

I'm not self medicating now. I used to drink.
The last few days have been hard not to drink.

One day, one minute...just hang on.

 

[Chimera]

Oh yeah, when that *evil thing starts up in my back, I'll do near anything to make it go away.
Was pretty symptom free when I was on perscription hydrocodone, cept I never felt anything, at all, nada. Went off those about 15 months ago still felt nothing..except the beast in my back grows talons when I'm triggered and alchohol quiets that dragon down. Told T I would be using it to self medicate until we could find some other skill or med. Gotta say Kratom too, but that stuff is too expensive right now. I've started swimming again to try lessening the symptoms.

 

[Mr Man]

I’ve been using the smallest amount of weed, but for several decades. By smallest amount, the equivalent of one joint a week. But taken each day just before bedtime. If I don’t I tend to drink, which I don’t like. I sometimes wonder if it’s a serious addiction, and then stop for a month and start to get stressed. I guess it’s stopping me learn health ways of dealing with stress – but when the Drs were scratching their heads all those years about what my ailment was it was a life saver.. Every Dr I've spoken to about it, loses interest when they hear how little yet often, I take it. I'm planning to move off it now I've been diagnosed with C-PTSD. It's not the biggest issue for me right now, but any tips ?

 

[Justmehere]

I use to self medicate with self injury. I'm down to 2-3 times a month, and working my ass off to completely stop. I'm beginning to replace it with food abuse, but I'm trying to get that under control before it becomes a whole new problem.

 

[ground crew]

Pot. It is legal here and ptsd is a reasonable symptom for a permit. I am afraid of all therapeutic drugs and that frustrates the va. But suicidal ideations is not on the warning lable for pot. Mostly just evening bedtime & weekends.

 

[Just-yep]

I used to medicate with coke, heroin, alcohol, nicotine, excessive exercise.
Now I do none of those things. I miss the exercise and hope to start climbing again when my baby gets a bit older. Climbing was the only thing I did that actually healthy. Otherwise I try to do art

 

[DreamLover]

alcohol and marijuana and clicking random shit online to tune out

This is me. Recently sober - but the online clicking continues. :(

 

[SGT1209]

I dont self medicate..told T i prefer natural therapies.. they want to try CPT...anyone else tried this...was it of help?

 

[LostInCPTSD]

Until two years ago it was a shitton of alcohol and gigantic amounts of cigarettes.

Luckily I managed...

I just recently heard of KRATOM - because our beloved gov't is BMNING IT - so I know enough to order a ton. I ordered powders, red green and white veined. Which works best for you? How to you consume it? Is it legal in ur state still? I am scared to get my hopes up but I can't help but to think this CANT BE MY LIFE IT CANT BE PERMANENT!! I have overcome so much since I was a child homeless - and ever since my breakdown two years ago I been a strait MESS and only the painful eye rashes went away and symptoms went from 10 to like 8 and staying there - my symptoms are strong like a 10 after a trigger which happens almost weekly sometimes multiple times a week if its bad or a lot going on or have contact with my kids mother (who is sociopath and source of multiple traumas) - so after a ton of therapy (well a 'ton' for me, 2-3 days a week hour long sessions for about 16 months - then I could tell my therapist started getting sympathy fatigue and began the tough love phase that my tender and pathetic remains of my soul just couldn't bear, so stopped going a year ago and she never even tried to get in touch with me again, which also hurt but I know I'm not myself right now either so I just push it down!) - anyways before I continue rambling thank you for your post and when u get time fill me in on KRATON !! I ordered 122 g of each type that I really couldn't afford but again if it's my miracle cure I'll sell my left leg to get back to normalcy or at least 'better'.. I like healing naturally and don't trust doctors - I'm taking a ton of herbs and vitamins and supplements which helped bring my energy level from a 2 to a 4.. but it's costing me an unaffordable $160 a month..! Sorry to go on and on - but that's me - an isolated and lonely father of two kids in school.. lol TAKE CARE

 

[NatBird]

sugar
meditation practices
maladaptive daydreaming

hoping to get excessive exercise going again!

 

[LostInCPTSD]

I dont self medicate..told T i prefer natural therapies.. they want to try CPT...anyone else tried this...

CBT? It seemed to make me worse - no matter how many times I did it I would cry cry cry cry and be EXHAUSTED for 3-5 days after.. never seemed to help me.. I want to try EMDR.. what helped me most profoundly was EFT.. look on YouTube re: how to do that you do on ur own it's free ! Take care..

 

[LostInCPTSD]

Does anyone else have a substance abuse problem? "/

As a kid (12yrs onward) I used cigarettes, weed, sex (not till 15yrs old), LSD, mushrooms, alcohol, whip it's (nitrous), and I learned later my 'friends' we're putting coke in some of the joints they rolled (only things I swore I'd never do as a kid: coke, heroin & meth - so my friends were playing a little joke by putting it in my joints and watching me react. However when I was 19-20yrz old I did a ton of coke & meth, just decided one day wasn't for me and stopped taking). As I got older, became musician and stage/attention/sex became a drug, and I just continued with the weed and occasional drink (my Dad alcoholic so I was kinda super cautious about drinking). After I got married and had kids, it went to leaning heavily on Hydrocodone (the doc prescribed me for multiple car accidents, I never took it for years but started taking after I met my mothers twin, a sociopath, who became mother to my two kids) - so I was taking opioids to cope with emotional pain from about age 27-36, about two years after our terrible divorce/house foreclosure/adultery - I quit cold turkey at 36 just to punish myself on one hand and to stop thinking about them all day and be healthy enough to raise my kids in a world of abnormal stress, on the other). The chronic pain got worse as my CPTSD began to surface more and more (read the Mind-Body Connection by Dr John Sarno - it may keep you from back surgery like it did for me!! Miracle book!!) so I Again took Norco with very careful doses and intervals - once my CPTSD made my body collapse one day two years ago (41 yrs old), I went to therapist and learned I had severe PTSD and major depression - doc gives me Xanex and two others I refuse to take (SSRI's, etc). I did take mushrooms 4 times since my diagnosis (within last 2 yrs) hoping for drastic spiritual breakthrough or strong enough drug to re-wire my brain? I was/am desperate to be 'normal' enough to work and play music and work on my cars and go on a vacation again some day!) - I think they helped, but not as much as I hoped.. didn't require enough but did make a few things more clear in my mind (such as lessening guilt, seeing I was doing everything I could fit my kids and to see that finally and stop blaming myself for their mothers doing) - as for shrooms, careful not to take more than 2 grams tho to test urself, I took 4 my 'kid dose' (from the old days of living on streets, back when I had a lot more angst & strength!!) for first time using them after 2+ decades - and it just magnified my confusion, and it was hard to get through the 'peak stage' of the drug.. whew that was cleansing - I had no idea I did so many drugs till now - thanks for asking the question!!