How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[goingonhope]

Today has been an incredibly good day!

And, the best thing about it is that at one point there was quite a disruption (not me) and enough other things were potentially very troublesome and challenging, and yet I responded to it all particularly well: consciously, wisely, and calmly and so therefore I made it through it all without be dragged down or worrying myself sick.

Hope

 

[jeapea]

Some days are diamonds, some days are dog ###t! The sun was shining though... :) I lit a patch of dried grass to burn it out for 'spring cleanup' around here and almost caught my jeep on fire. hmm.. better watch what I'm doing...

I guess I'm depressed and not really paying attention to what I should be. Went outside to do 'something' so I didn't spend the day sitting on my ass in the house feeling guilty for not doing anything. I really need to get over this apathy and indifference..... good grief.

 

[goingonhope]

Omg, .............yikes.

The day has gone fairly well, but not without confusion, despite the fact that there is no noise around to cause such disruption in thought and my ability to think straight.

However, within my first 10 min. awake, I did bust my, right foot piggy-toe, and I'm certain of this. A piggy-toe is a piggy toe :smile: and later once I regained my ability to lean on the left sd of that foot, I thought heck this isn't as bad regarding: (long-lived and any inability to get around without too much pain), as I was concerned it might be.

So heck I'm going about my day, .....carefully, and bam, just min.'s ago I banged it.

Damn thing creates enough pain to see black and nearly take my breath away.

Vent: This sucks!

When it happened it sent me to the floor and I felt like I was dying from that pain. All I could think about was reassuring my children that Mommy was fine and please don't call emerg. One of our children were saying, we must call emerg. I was trying to spit out, please No., I'll be fine, I just busted my toe. So my husband speaks up, she just stubbed her toe;

Hun, I wish that's all it was!

97% of my right foot entered the kitchen while 3% slammed into the wall and stopped.

Hee Hee, good............I can now laugh about it, (unless I was to bang it accidentally again.) (smiles) ,,, (unless of course it really happens).

 

[cragger65]

Son-of-a bitch, sorry about your poor toe, Hope. A day on the couch looks good :)

Feeling in control again today, got myself into a real funk yesterday thinking about the bad shit and my taking the "victim role" when I should have been busting my hump. Get's me down on myself, but all I can do is choose what is good for me now.

My poor little buddy, Rufus the Cat has been sick for two days. I made a vet appointment, but I couldn't even coax poor Ruf out from under the stairwell. When I tried to pick him up earlier, he mewled in pain, so I know it is bad.

The vet said to just bring him in, no matter the time, if he comes out from there today or tomorrow. Wish me Luck!!!

 

[Mina]

Ohhh, poor kitty :( Sorry to hear he is sick, Cragger - hope he comes out soon so the vet can help!

And sorry to hear about your toe, Hope...owch!

I am actually in a pretty good mood today. I've spent most of it archiving project files from several years ago, and nobody has bothered me. The guys in the shop were hammering and pretty noisy for most of the day. It didn't really bug me, but it was nice to be able to hear my music when they stopped. Then a few minutes ago, I started hearing...a trumpet?? like a real trumpet. I TOTALLY cracked up laughing! Not exactly what you expect from a sheet metal shop. Turns out the owner's daughter is down there practicing, LOL. Now I have my earphones in :wink:

 

[Mina]

Oh my gosh, I just had the best evening I've had in some time!!!

Three of my friends/former co-workers from my old job (2 hrs away) were in town tonight. We all met up at this classy martini/piano bar downtown and hung out and just talked and laughed and BS'd for over 3 hours. It was so much fun!! and so great to see them.

For 3 hours, it was like my PTSD didn't exist. It was just me and my friends. What a great time :occasion:

Thus, I am feeling HAPPY right now!!!

I did have a mild anaphylactic shock reaction in the midst of it...I think it was from a naproxen sodium (aka Aleve) I took for pain before I left the house...but I am proud of myself for dealing with it well, and not overreacting. Went to the store and got some Benadryl, which stopped it from getting any worse, then went back to hang out some more. I was having THAT much fun. :smile:

 

[Leda]

There´s no doubt about it: Trauma therapy is HARD! In todays session we worked on some difficult memories from my teenage years and the feelings they provoke - Guilt, shame, fear, pain and some anger. I managed to talk though tears were running dovn my face most of the time.

I will get trough this - and it will get better, but I´m so tired. My therapist tells me to get a lot of rest theese days, and I try. Somedays I need meds to do that, but it´s ok for now.

Cragger- I hope your cat is better. One of mine has an ugly eye infection and he does not like me when clean his eye.

Mina - Nice to hear that you had such a fine evening :-)

 

[cragger65]

Mina and Leda, thanks for the well wishes re: Rufus, I really appreciate that. Mina, glad you had a good evening, that sounds grand :) And Leda, I know how rough it can get. You sound like you're managing very well considering. It will keep getting better.

Feeling a bit better today, had neuro-feedback and went for a walk around the hood. I feel exhausted after the last few days of being geared up and flooding. Not sure if I'm ready for EMDR, the ground feels kinda shaky at the moment and I'm wondering if maybe just patience and trying other approaches for another year is the smart thing to do? I don't know right now, am going to talk to the EMDR doc about it before our next meeting and see what he thinks. I'll have to fill him in on the strong reactions I've had since our first meeting. Kinda threw me.

 

[goingonhope]

Yesterday, I came down with whatever E, N & throat, and respiratory thingy has been going around, so I spent a good part of yesterday morning resting. Will be resting and recovering from this this week. Would really enjoy surprising myself and really taking it easy.

 

[cypher]

I went to work today late. I hate my job but am glad I still have one. It's so hard to work. I practically can't. I hate being around people, especially ones that yell at you all day. Miraculously made it through the work day, then went home and slept for a bit. Have no feelings at all. Numb.

 

[fin]

I am in such physical pain at the moment. My tooth ache from weeks ago is now completely across the right side of my face. I know I have been not acknowledging it at all. It has affected my sleep and so I have been becoming kind of sleep deprived fuelled. It never cease to amaze me that I can kind of just shut that down. I am seeing the pain in my face as a distraction from the constant pain in my leg. And both of these have to some extent distracted me from the pain inside.

But today I got some stuff to try to anesethize....I so know I didn't spell that right hah! And some other stuff, I am also trying to slow the pain with breathing techniques and meditate my way out of it.

I had pressing bills to sort today so I didnt get to sort any dentist stuff out still. And I am still waiting for the Absolute paperwork to come through. I am worried for a friend and my dog and cat are getting miffed with each other tonight...yes that same dog and cat that snuggle so beautifully together are bickering. Oh why can't the world live as one, and why cant we love one another.

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on


And I keep going back to stirring lyrics...amongst other things

 

[disenchanted]

Ah the dentist! I'm not alone!! I don't want to go to the dentist either fin. I promised myself I'd do it over the two week vacation....but I didn't.

But I'm going to (reslove face). This year. Sometime.

Today I am stewing over going back to work Monday. Yes that's three days from now but why procrastinate? I know I gotta go and I know I'm gonna hate it so why put off the anxiety?