How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[fin]

Today I have taken another chance, I am trying to trust myself and this is good.

I have a pretty bad toothache still which ic a bummer, and yesterday was interesting and I think maybe I am still getting over it but...

Tomorrow is a big one for me, hopefully will be anyway and I hope I will get through it again, I say again because this is the big ish stuff and it is frightening....well ok scarey ...less than frightening

~fin

 

[fin]

I think today may have to be one of those ones I let go of, and thats before it has even started yet.

I have a good piece of news from someone about their weekened and this I am happy about-for them. They are hopefully going to have a great weekend, and I am hoping for them.


I couldn't move this morning...it has taken me a good two hours to be able to get up and be able to get to here, and so far that is it for me. But I am trying to see that this is good also.

My back has gone and the pain is just crap, but hey I managed it, I got up and I am here, and this is good. And then capping it off, is someone else's good stuff...I am soo grateful to this forum...I am smiling at the thought of someone else having a great weekend.

I can see that when there is so much bad stuff happening in the world, hearing good news still gets to me and makes me smile.

I hope that I am moving forward still, I hope that .... you know it doesn't matter anything else I write right now, because I can see that I am hopeful and for me this is good and an improvement...and that as I see it is just soo cool.

~fin

 

[fin]

Today has been good, a strange start, but a great evening and finish. I am getting, or even trying to get better at this self kindness thing.

And I have honestly been overwhelmed with generosity of spirit. I am taken aback at kindness and I am not quite sure how to feel, it still makes me cry and hurts to accept. I hope I can get better at this. Because I could well be stuffed if I dont.





My son came over tonight-with his girlfriend, we had dinner and it was a lovely evening. I will try to get to bed in a minute, -this self kindness bit and all. Got to keep trying now...no giving up. I am worried in part that if I say anything that I felt that was negative about it, I may get jumped and blindsided again. It was difficult, it stinks that I was almost going up the wall when they were a couple of hours late and no call, hell with almost, I was trying really hard to focus and not be all or nothing.

I also feel very awake now, very alert and that bothers me, I would like to sleep better and tonight, but I will have to do something more to try to get to this point in living with it all. I have had some improved sleep so thats good ish. Any improvement is a good thing. I am trying and that has to count for something.

Small steps but gradual, will get me there in the end I hope.

Good week.

I had trouble with the film, but hey thats two films I have managed to get through now. Maybe a hat trick tomorrow.. I have some I would like to try again. I miss the movies. I weighed up going to the pictures but I dont know how i feel about the kiera knightly thing for dv, I have seen it, but I dont think I need to at the flicks. Especially when I consider what I have to go through to even think about it. Let alone not being able to even sit through an entire film. its still sucks but maybe less so...PTSD rats and rats again


I dont know where the tears keep coming from but its embaressing. I was welling up the other afternoon at getting through my list...just need to let it out I guess. No tears today..and the last couple have been pretty awesome so I will have to just start getting it all together more.


small steps fin

 

[fin]

Today I can see I am becoming more balanced, I am tired right now but I can definitely see that I am begining to work through this and me better than maybe I had even realised until just now.

I have nothing much else to say right now apart from *these are the days....* I think I will try to go and chill out a little maybe.

so I hope to post and walk now...but I think, I really do think that there is still a chance that curiosity may well just get the better of me regardless of how I am feeling at this moment. Although having said that I am truly tired so maybe just a quick break..I can always come back..if I dont like it!!! ;)

 

[fin]

I am smiling at my day, I am less afraid (perhaps). (some anyhoo) lol, yay me!! yeah whoop whoop huh? I hope so, I think I am still going forward. I know there will be setbacks, I know it isn't easy, but hell its hopefully going to be better than it has been. And I say this now so I can remember again if and when I need to (prob.tomorrow lol !!)

 

[fin]

My day has been amazing in a strange but very beauitful kind of way. I am in awe at so much that can be beautiful and I am very thankful for so much today. And thats it I think, I could ramble on some but I may loose the thread or chain of thought I found. Thankyou to everyone here for allowing me to stand beside you, you have shown me such warmth and friendship here. You guide me and i am soo thankful for that. The small steps I take are mine, but I think they are becoming more steadfast, that perhaps I am becoming more of something hopefull that way also. We can learn to manage PTSD it does not have ot be all or nothing, I believe.

 

[Deleted member 541]

The stress that has plagued me for weeks, has finally left me alone, and therefore my stress level is down once again. I am no longer biting heads off. Thank God for small miracles!!!!!!

Today was a good day, spent with a close friend. Out for lunch and did a couple of flea markets. So far, a good day!!!! Now onto the remainder of my HBO slugfest weekend!!!!!!

 

[fin]

ok So I may be writing this all wrong and even in the wrong place but I am learning or trying to.

My head hurts this evening and I have some chest pain ah=gain , I am not even going to try to work through my typos sorry for that. I have been afraid to post but I think that is maybe ridiculous of me to feel that fear again.

It has been quite a day, I have stepped out of my close comfort zone and while I didnt leave the house today, I was out loads yesterday and I hope to gain something tomorrow. I have done a lot today though and I am tired tonight. I may have messed up my homework but I can honestly say that perhaps my brain was on other things, I know somethings maybe have not changed in that respect ahh PTSD.

I have a long day ahead tomorrow and so I am thinking I cant stay up late.


I am struggling some to get used to eating again, I am in pain from this also and have been -two days now, but in light of the fact that yesterday I had ibs nearly the whole day I am not worried nor am I surprised to be in pain, or maybe just discomfort rather than pain.

Today has been really quite weird actually. But awesomely good at the same time.
I forgot some stuff and slipped right back into at least one old habit, I slapped a compliment back by shrugging it off like it was a ridiculous concept. I am hopefull that perhaps tomorrow may bring with it new (sorry words have slipped out of my head again) I am going to go with the word *moments* here, because I am just not able to think of the word that seems to just be hiding back there.

And thats it from me I am sorry if I have rambled tonight, my brain for sure is on overload some, but again it is all good I hope .~

 

[cragger65]

Hey Fin, it is so good to see you doing well, you're sounding so much better, it's so beautiful to see this unfolding for you. Miracles do happen, they just take time.

Dave

 

[Leda]

My day has mostly been spent sleeping. I had an early morning appointment with my therapist - and it was hard, but i managed to work trough the EMDR. I was exhausted when I came home, so after a ligth lunsj, I found my safe corner on my sofa and fell asleep - and slept for nine hours. And now I plan to take a Stilnoct and go back to sleep - in my bed this time.

 

[fin]

Bless you Dave and thankyou miracles happenings and time I like how that sounds and maybe almost feels too. Thankyou

I am hoping you are allwell also, the unfolding of how we have been shaped is not easy, sometimes the lines are almost too precise in their folds. I guess each line though will smoothe some with time.

A friend told me remembering that we can live only one day at a time removes the burdens of the past from our back and keeps us from dreading the future, which none of us can know anyway" I hope this ease's some as we go on and through here.



Small steps and single days, each one are but our moments in time ~ me.






_Take care in everything you do and peaceful dreaming to you also

 

[Luthien]

My day has been GREAT! I have been using the Law of Attraction for the last week,(thought I have known about it for almost 2 years) and it has already helped me get through some very rough stuff in the last few days. Today I woke up well rested and ready to take on the day, after affirming to myself, last night, that I was going to have a great sleep, and wake up feeling great.

It worked, and I am having a very good day. I have been singing a lot, listening to some great music, and enjoying the sunshine. I have also been beaming, and sharing the happiness with everyone. I just thought I would share, because for the first time in a long time, I have something wonderful to report.

I hope everyone else is finding today to be a good one as well.