How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[goingonhope]

Enjoyed the Zoo with husband and kids for Father's Day. Especially took interest in the bear and jaguar exhibits.

Did a bit of mulcing earlier.

Obsessing a bit tonight over something annoying.

Find myself tired and ready for bed, as tommorrow have something big in the morning to attend. Something, I thought my husband would be coming to as well, only to find out he's not.

 

[goingonhope]

It's steamy hot outside!

Daughter's away at camp and got to go see her wrap up her day, and perhaps some singing and dancing too.

 

[goingonhope]

Not one of my better days, as I just didn't have the get up and go that I'm familiar with; So another words, not motivated.

Do have the thought, maybe wish and hopefully by tommorrow, MOTIVATED intent of going to the beach tommorrow with my son if the weather is just right for it. When too hot is too hot, it's a no go though. Though I don't think it's suppose to be tommorrow.

Just below my neck and all across my shoulders tonight is in terrible pain, and I'm gonna just have to quit anything else tonight and go find a movie on television. I hope. Maybe?

blah', blah', blah.

 

[goingonhope]

I just felt I had to do the craziest thing, and so did it. Our house has so many, many windows and when I heard the voice outside of someone that would've ended up claiming my entire day from this point on, I got up from my computer and this time went so far as to hide behind walls and stoop down low beneath windows to avoid losing just another of numerous days to company, coffee and conversation.

This family /friend suffers memory loss and so even though I've told her, more then once, that I can only have so many visits from her in the course of a week, she apparently forgets when she's been here last and shows up sometimes daily, and sometimes (like today) doesn't even ring the doorbell, rather expects me to see and hear her from the many windows (I imagine) and be social.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Emailed my father if he got he's birthday gift from me and my husband. He replied he had and thanks us. i replied back saying I hope you like it and mentioned having to go to therapy today, and wish me luck...

He didn't say anything about it. He always just says "yeah okay..." if I talk about it, or rather try to talk about it. Then he starts talking about himself, his vacations, what's hes bought recently. I don't know...

 

[goingonhope]

Outside of other things, had a really good telephone conversation with my Mom today. Was supportive of her, listened, empathized, didn't take on her stuff, and shared with her some really good leads that will ultimately improve her days and life if she gets down to the business of responding to these leads; Provided her the motivation to do just this.

 

[Jacquie]

Should have been a good day. No trigger stuff on weekends. But instead I avoided being out in lovely sunshine and sat here in pyjamas for heavens sake, trying to find a 'cure' for this (just joined). No housework, no washing, no walk, no.....well nothing really. Except bursting into instant tears when I read this 'someone else living in my body' is permanent. I want to STOP stumbling over words, and doing the stupidest things, forgetting things, being unable to finish a subject without ending up in some place I dont know how I got there. I want 'me' back. I just cant accept that 'brain change' is a permanent thing. Its being triggered the whole time having to go back over things over and over with each new person. I need to get 'out' of what caused it as a starting point so I can calm down enough to 'think clearly' at least.

 

[ItsAllGood]

not a good day. Couldn't get out of bed all day, thought about suicide, wanted to ring my T to tell him I'd disossociated and wandered off after our last session and got badly hurt, I guess I'm angry at him for triggering me, then I felt bad for being angry at someone whos trying to help me. I can't wait to be asleep again so I don't have to feel. Alone. Confused. Angry at myself.

 

[ItsAllGood]

" I want 'me' back. I just cant accept that 'brain change' is a permanent thing. Its being triggered the whole time having to go back over things over and over with each new person"

According to current research brain change isn't necessarily permanent. Theres that book 'the brain that changes itself' about brain plasticity... Be gentle with you, take it slowly...

 

[heidi]

yeah, well not good. Feeling intolerable levels of anger. Feel like I can't stand a minute more.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

feeling change. And not all good change

 

[Jestadud]

An absolute pile of sh*t. Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse.