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Okay Mouse (warning blunt here. I'm tired.. hehe played video games all day, went out yesterday, did nothing today! so this will be short because I'm cross-eyed! lol) Get the hell away from that woman!

You have a right to live without abuse. That is just crazy. No more excuses, if you want to get better you need to surround yourself with loving supportive people, not pyschos that punch you (nevermind when your injured!)

I know it's hard and hurts like hell to cut out family (hell look at mine!) but I really think you need to start working towards this. HARD.

bec
 
Thanks Bec,
I know you are so righ and I am trying to spend way less time out there with her , Iknow I need to get away , and I will just as soon as i get the will power for it it will be soon though I know in my heart that at least.
And when havent you been straight to the point Video games or not lol
Thanks Bec
 
*hugs* mouse

Well guys, over the weekend we went out to the local animal refuge and came home with Ranger.

He's between 18 months and two year old, a kelpie cross rottweiler. Absolute sweety. Spent most of today sitting with his head in my lap :)

Oh, another job interview thursday, this time at a nursing home *cross fingers touch wood* I really wouldn't mind working with the aged again :) It's an enjoyable experience.
 
Warning- *********TRIGGERS*********

Today, my venting is titled- OH F*CK or Oh GAD.

Also, none of the following is courtroom facts, these are my opinions + memories. Don't take this as a total posting of facts.
Today, in the USA, Where I am, A lone gunman killed two people in a Viginia College. He then walked thru the campus, killed about 30 more people, then killed himself. Am I up to my eyeballs in anger + perturbedness + PTSD?
Yer darn tootin'.

Way back when, I lived in a college that had about 40 pupils living on campus. There was a man + woman there who were a couple. One oother man on campus wanted this woman to be his girlfriend, so this dink of a man got 2 friends + a knife + attacked this man while the boyfriend + girlfirend were in the girlfriend's room. The attacked man was sliced with the knife a few times + did not suffer permanent damage or scars. What mental + emotional scarring the man + his girlfriend recieved.....Freak knows.
The student who attacked the man was expelled. oooooh, what a BIIIIIG punishment-for my feeling of security could the school at leasthad him + his buddies arrested? Screw Up. The campus them built security doors to the women's rooms + made it mandatory that all campus dorms had to have their living quarters always locked. [sacrasm] It would have been nice to have been given free councelling from the college, or at least a public assembly to explain-how this attack happened, and WHY security was so piss poor to let a twisted freak with a knife + his friends barge into a room and "mess someone up" witha knife. [ok, that was brutal of me- sorry.]
[Rob catches his breath]. So.....Yeah, innocent people getting attacked + news of an attack or deadly attacks on campus can really [emotionally hold me down and really temporarily mess up my brain + fear like a bad dose of LSD.
Moving on.....I am deeply angered + scared by this lone freak on the Virginia campus that decided that killing a host of innocent stangers was an ok thing to do.
I think mostly I'm just pissed at what a STUPID thing it was to do. What was he after? fame? in 10 yrs time, his nation's public will have fogotten his name. revenge? uh....not unless the school killed 33 people he knew-I don't think revenge is a good thing anyway. What did he accomplish anyway except be a killer and a lackluster news story. nothing.
This guy could have gotten more news by wearing a bikini + busting inot a college faculty meeting + dragging his college dean to the ground. The guy would get in the papers, he'd be a funny story, + we'd always remember his attack. Or he could have attacked the same meeting with water balloons filled with tomato juice + tossing them at the college staff. Or tossing real looking rubber rats + ketchup at the staff. This guy who shot at people at a Virginia school, this was just so dumb. In my opinion, there is next to nothing that is worth a civilian killing himself/herself and there is nothing worth a civilian killing other civilians. There may be exceptions to that, but I'm too pissed off to want to delve into the exceptions. You want me to remember you man? do some non-violent thing that I've never heard of, like storm Buckingham Palace dressed in a Batman costume for "Father's Rights", or some other creative an non-violent attention getting thing like that. [ A guy DID storm Buckingham palace in the batman suit recently, BTW].
That's all the PTSD news that's mean + nasty from my corner of the globe for now. I think now I'll go sulk, grumble about dumb clueless men with guns, and look for some ice cream to soothe my soul. If I've offended anyone. my apologies. Today my nation had more of it's fair share of nuts and bozos. That's all for now. Have a Good Day, Rob
 
Hugs tightly.

Some of my online friends from various rpg groups have close friends that were caught up in the second lot of shooting.
Been stressed out today worrying about them. Just real shaky and crying.

Shocked a few people at another forum when they trivialised how they figured they'd feel if they were there. Their opinion was, oh, i'd still get up and go to class the next day.

They just couldn't understand that shit like that hits deep. *growls and swears*

I just hope that they don't end up on the road we are. Just hope so much that they have enough help before it gets ths bad.
 
Thank You, GR'ass, More thank I can say.

*Hugs Tightly*.

I hope that you + I will feel better soon after this event. I hope that your friends + the people that they know will find ways to see this event, then grieve, recover and manage their lives from there and keep rolling. Ack.

I'm not trying to make me or my post sound noble or like "Rob is a super guy by what he writes in his post" or whatever. I'm really frightened and sad about this event, I know I'm not alone in feeling this wayand any other types of unhappy about this event. I think I know what you mean. I've been in car accidents. It's easy for people who aren't connected to a terrible event to say: "well, If a boulder rolled off the mountain + nearly smashed my car, I'd brush myself off like a superhero + drive again tomorrow." Well, my fears don't work like that. Some big jolt like that, it will take me a long time to recover. I imagine that most people on this planet respond + need time to recover to a big jolt like that as well. It's so sad.

[no I didn't have a boulder experience I was just talking in theory].

My thoughts and prayers go with you + your friends + their friends in this unfortunate time. I really do feel for them. Please guys, go out + hug someone today, they probably need one.

Peace and Love Everyone,

Have a Good Day,

Rob
 
*hugs* Rob tight cos she can.

Well, everyone has heard from everyone, so thats a little bit of worry I don't have to think about.

Gaaah, is it normal for this shit to trigger my symptoms when it doesn't even fit with my fecked up trauma?

I mean WTF!!!!

or maybe its a normal reaction and I'm just over reacting *sighs*
*ugs* hugs everyone. Just been a bad day, fretting about that bloody interview tomorrow *gaaahrs*

I want the job but I am shit scared to go talk to them. Really hope they don't keep me waiting for a half hour like the last lot *grrs* just realises I forgot my bloody meds again today *wimpers* actually feel half decent considering.
 
Hi GR'ass,

Glad to hear that you heard from your friends and the people they knew. That must be a relief. I'm glad that you heard from them.
Best of luck on your interview! They need good people like you.

Have a Good Day,

Rob
 
Hi, Rob and GR'ass,

Just thought I'd mention I started a thread about Virginia Tech at the PTSD chat, where some other members are also venting about it, just in case you hadn't seen it. I totally relate. I've had to spend so much time just getting myself back to a functioning state, meaning able to work at least part of the day, because of this horror. I've been so triggered by it. Doesn't seem to me to be a lot of resemblance to a "running-for-your-life" experience I had, but I guess that's the nature of the beast.

Please take care, and hugs,

hodge
 
man I wish that time could just move faster and then these days would be over, I have so much pain, I cant handle being in so much pain, these days must end soon please and let me go on with life
 
Mouse,

I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I know what that's like. How did your MRI turn out? Won't they give you any medication to help? Please hang in there and continue to let us know how you are doing.

Hodge
 
Thanks Rob. Dont know the results as of yet, you have to love health care, They are iving me meds ut they arent touching th epain whenit is at its worst. but I know that it cant last forever, I hope
 
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