I Am A Perpetrator.

[Ejawin]

Talk to another doctor, get a second opinion. If you have intermittent explosive, and PTSD is co-morbid - that could also look a lot like you. Tourettes is one of the tic disorders, and more complicated to diagnose than one might think - intermittent explosive, for a diagnosis someone really has to be working with you for a bit and get a ton of detail.

Thanks for the article and the info. I have put it on list of things to ask the new clinic I am going to go to in about two weeks. It does seem like something more than PTSD alone. Something neurological. Maybe it's related to the mild TBI I had from the traumas I survived.

Oh, there's most definitely a perpetrator here on the forum! She posts quite often and I laugh in my head thinking she's getting what is coming to her. Karma is a biotch, right? She was welcomed with open arms, most likely because she is female and females can do no wrong, females don't abuse others, females are always the motherly, nurturing type. I hate to say it, but I'm glad to see at least one perpetrator suffering.

I'm not the person you are so angry at on the forum. Your anger at female poster on forum may be justified. However, I hope you don't think your anger is really only about them or the other perpetrators on an internet forum. I'm guessing you are a survivor of trauma or neglect or pain at the hands of a female perpetrator who hurt you way more than anyone here on the forum ever could, and now you are really mad and peeved about anyone like them that is shown any acceptance or compassion. If that is the case, I can relate. If it is not, I'm still sorry for what you are struggling with about this person on the forum. I hope you find a path for peace for yourself. I'm still searching myself.

Haven't read any of the above responses however take heart opening poster.... if you pause and read carefully... there is cause for optimism. Just my take and I'm just another member... no shrink or person of any authority. But I'd say if you've invested and applied yourself to recovery to the degree you profess.... you may be acute aware of the impact you have on other people... and still have the fear that you may re-offend?

Your words are a challenge to me to see things differently. It makes me pause. You all have so much compassion.

I am desperate to change. I fear I won't change. Most people with PTSD probably do not offend against others, but I know many people here are scared others things won't change. For me, the battle is bigger than my own well being, but the well being of others too. As long as I am alive, I won't ever give up on doing everything I can to be a better person for the sake of those around me.

 

[Amu]

Above post was by the original poster, Capej.