Heather
Diamond Member
Sometimes I really hate my mother.
My therapist gave me this book about narcissistic mothers and I was only on page 23 and I called and asked him if they interviewed her for the book?! Everything is always about her.
I finally told her I was having a hard time again. I asked her if she would watch my daughter... I have 3 appt. this week coming up. My therapist is on vacation which literally sucks ass because I'm struggling so much right now. (but he is going to call me a bunch so that helps) and she hasn't spent much time with her granddaughter lately anyway so you'd think she'd want to see her. And she does have the option to say no but she said YES. Then she says that takes up three of my days. I'm thinking to myself then don't watch her for me and I'll end up in the hospital again like I did in July and you won't have ANY days free. It's always all about her.
God sometimes I really hate that b*tch. She refuses to acknowledge any of what I'm going through or how hard this is on me. That she kept sending us down there year after year, summer after summer. That I still live with the effects of what my father did to me to this day. I can't function as a normal person. I can't have normal relationships. I can't even be touched right now, the very idea repulses me.
All my mother wants to do is act like nothing happened, ignore it and it'll go away, that's her motto. Screw her is what I say. When my brother-in-law sexually assaulted me all she cared about was how it affected her. She was furious at ME when she found out that I had gone to the police. I must had said 150 times that night: "this is not my fault". To this day she still says I blame you for the way it came out. She never even said I'm sorry that happened to you. She still goes over to my sisters house. She was there tonight. It blows my mind that she can be in the same room with that evil monster after what he did to me!
My daughter almost went to the same school as my sisters kids and over my dead body was I going to let that happen. I was going to write a letter to the school board asking to change schools and my mother wanted to know what I was going to put in the letter. She so concerned about appearances! What about the F&^king truth. luckily I moved so it was a none issue. I'm done maybe now I can sleep.
My therapist gave me this book about narcissistic mothers and I was only on page 23 and I called and asked him if they interviewed her for the book?! Everything is always about her.
I finally told her I was having a hard time again. I asked her if she would watch my daughter... I have 3 appt. this week coming up. My therapist is on vacation which literally sucks ass because I'm struggling so much right now. (but he is going to call me a bunch so that helps) and she hasn't spent much time with her granddaughter lately anyway so you'd think she'd want to see her. And she does have the option to say no but she said YES. Then she says that takes up three of my days. I'm thinking to myself then don't watch her for me and I'll end up in the hospital again like I did in July and you won't have ANY days free. It's always all about her.
God sometimes I really hate that b*tch. She refuses to acknowledge any of what I'm going through or how hard this is on me. That she kept sending us down there year after year, summer after summer. That I still live with the effects of what my father did to me to this day. I can't function as a normal person. I can't have normal relationships. I can't even be touched right now, the very idea repulses me.
All my mother wants to do is act like nothing happened, ignore it and it'll go away, that's her motto. Screw her is what I say. When my brother-in-law sexually assaulted me all she cared about was how it affected her. She was furious at ME when she found out that I had gone to the police. I must had said 150 times that night: "this is not my fault". To this day she still says I blame you for the way it came out. She never even said I'm sorry that happened to you. She still goes over to my sisters house. She was there tonight. It blows my mind that she can be in the same room with that evil monster after what he did to me!
My daughter almost went to the same school as my sisters kids and over my dead body was I going to let that happen. I was going to write a letter to the school board asking to change schools and my mother wanted to know what I was going to put in the letter. She so concerned about appearances! What about the F&^king truth. luckily I moved so it was a none issue. I'm done maybe now I can sleep.
