I Realize That I

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that I have grown to the point that I am gravitating towards the positive in life more and more recently. I also realized that this helps me to feel better about life in general. I do not live in a bubble and real life has its own set of bad cards dealt to me that I am left to play with yet, I am finally able to make a conscious choice to do so.

 

[Anrish]

@gizmo: That's a great realization, congratulations! :hug:

I realize that I mustn't forget about Ture - and my strong side.

 

[Deleted member 19804]

I realize that i have actually never truly given myself a chance to grieve over what happened to me.
Sure, at the most horrible times I've cried, and I've been very depressed,. But I have never allowed myself to really get sad and angry about what happened, because I'm scared of the overwhelming emotions it would bring up, and of how it will make those around me feel.

I realize that sometimes it is ok to be 'selfish' and let myself be vulnerable instead of trying to manage other people's feelings.

 

[sedna]

I realized that I drove an hour in weekend traffic, that cost me $100 not including gas, to write a check in the hope of discovering what Ragdoll Circus, Lostforgottensoul and Anarchy told me in 3 minutes here for free.

That's a glass half empty or half full type situation. Possibly also a " maybe you should use smaller glasses " question also.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that being in a relationship ain't the most important thing for me.

I realize that having good friends not being alone is much more valuable.

I realize that I freeze when men look at me too intense.

 

[Trinket]

I realized recently that I take things to heart and allow myself to feel bad for things that are other people's issues.

I realize that I have survived so much in my life that even though I'm not where I want to be, things aren't as bad as they could be, considering my history.

I realize I really need to work on accepting myself and establishing better boundaries for myself. This is what makes me feel free and empowered.

 

[Lionheart]

I realize that I am much stronger and more blessed than I ever knew

 

[goingonhope]

I realize that I can still internalize, punish and blame myself for the deceptions and acts of others and in so doing, I am not only hurting myself, but those I love most.

I realize that not everything destructive is a deceptive or selfish act, but that there are some areas in life that things literally fall outside of one's control.

I realize that I presently am in massive conflict within myself and likely cannot trust myself to say much more.

I realize that many of you here are fighting for your lives. Go easy. And, I send your families and you all my love and respect. Take care.

 

[goingonhope]

I realize that 5 straight-out I's in a row were used to begin my sentences. :arghh; Can I get any more annoying. :bored:..Need first a :bag: and next :sleep:. Though I've tried here in this post to find some humor in my struggles, ...I realize, I'm just not feeling it.

Goodnight.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realized today that I am experiencing a lot of brain fog and it causes me to be very forgetful. I have to really focus much harder.

 

[Deleted member 19804]

@goingonhope I can really relate to that feeling, that it's "bad" for me to start too many sentences with "I". Honestly though, I don't even see it when other people do that. And your realizations in your first post are really awesome :) :hug:

@gizmo you don't have to focus harder. It's not your fault that your mind is a bit foggy at the moment. Plus I can tell from experience that just focusing harder doesn't help much. Perhaps you can make a list of things you have to do today and hang it up somewhere you'll see it often? That can take a bit of the pressure off and help you stay on track with the important stuff :)
Be kind to yourself and give it a little time, the fog will clear up :hug:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you @Snowwhite much appreciation. I will make the daily lists.:hug: