I Realize That I

[Crow]

I might be okay.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I have been used for the past years.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that "I do matter" even though the feeling of "I didn't matter" has been a theme in my life for a very long time!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that all of my feelings are an ebb and flow different all of the time and I hope to be able to accept this fact as a part of my life.

 

[expectingbetter]

That I am the calmest possible before my session :O_o:
I know tough that the hard work is waiting for me though :inpain:
But this week is anyway a hard one, this year has begun with quite a few challenges :dead::shy:

 

[Changing4Best]

... am depressed today and I don't exactly know why.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I realize that I greatly benefit from some level of structure in my life, but I also equally resent being made to feel like I have to follow some specific script/set of expectations put in place by another, especially when created by others whose values/ideas/beliefs/behaviors and such are so wildly different (most especially when suggesting/expecting me to partake or be surrounded by all the things that have greatly hurt me in the past) from the ones I've learned I must follow to maintain living my life with any semblance of genuine sustainable wellness from the inside out....and therein lies a lot of my struggle.

How can I continue to follow the beat of my own drum while not seemingly f*cking up the chorus for the rest of the proverbial choir? Hmmmmm.... Solos tend to be a very necessary part of the choir performances, too. Solo...so low.....how low can you go? lol....dammit brain....taking the least harmful thoughts and turning them into self-weaponry in no time flat.....poof...be gone scattered tornadic thoughts....we have some playing to do outdoors today.

That should help sort some scattered shit and help you remember what's most valuable/helpful in the moment. Be at peace in your own skin....it's the one place you'll for sure be residing until you take your last breath. Continue to demand and practice the hard-learned better living conditions for your cell-ph, and then continue to grow with what you now know, as no one else is waiting in the wings to do any of it for you, that's for damn sure. Keep being the love you never received when you needed it the most. You've come a long way, baby. Go hug a tree and give more thanks.

 

[anonymous]

That I am painfully lonely and without and feel a painful lack of the purpose

 

[Anrish]

I realize that...I do love for real.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Lost a lot of time today

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Somehow I made the pain go away for a little while. Relief and peace for now, I will take it.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I can endure more than I expected.

I realize that I don't want to endure much more than necessary anymore.