I Realize That I

[Definitely..maybe]

I realize that I go through different/new emotional/mental phases every week.

 

[Tanishq]

I realize that being in touch with good things helps a lot. Yay!

 

[Tanishq]

@Anrish I am also like that. I can't live without music either. Music is food for soul. Good to see like-minded people. I was thinking I am the only one who is very crazy behind music. :laugh:

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize that I am the one who has to do the pushing to get me to shower, take walks, etc. I don't know the reasoning behind why I put the off. Maybe because I know they are good for me. Maybe because they take so much work. This is terrible. I've got to get out of this funk.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that even though I have an appointment to see my counselor tomorrow, I'm going there with no agenda per se to talk to her about. Everyday I'm at a different place considering where I was when I last saw her which was a month ago.

I realize I'm just going to show up and see what happens as I believe I need to do this for me.

 

[Anrish]

@Tanishq : Finally, a soulmate! :headphone: You're not alone with the craziness! Music is also my heartbeat when I can't feel my own anymore...the music gives me one. :singing: I got a new device by the way...and I hope that the battery will really hold on for 10 hours as promised.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize that I think I know what I should do as regards this 'healing' thing, though I'm not sure exactly 'why' it would potentially bring healing.

I realize I don't have to have any of the answers, myself. Just keep going/ trying. Rely on people smarter than me about it, because they 'get' what I don't or see things differently than I do or have faith or hope I don't.

I realize I probably don't have the courage to say what I would have to to put myself in that position for 'healing'. But maybe I will at some moment, one never knows? Especially knowing (in my heart) that if I want to heal that is probably part of it.

 

[Tinyflame]

And yet, that should be a good/ 'happy' thing, right? :confused: And most of the 'saner' or ultimately healing choices I've made started the same way.

Not sure why it's so terrifying a thought of doing, then. :( I'd rather not have to.

Just like quitting smoking. I know it's good for me, but I'd rather not, either. But here I go again trying today. :( I think it's hard because it's a passive suicidal effort.

I realized that I can give myself 'permission' (though difficult) to be happy or less frightened or worried at many given moments. Even if in some ways it feels 'wrong' or delusional.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Rely on people smarter

I was offered once by a Buddhist Master that the answers are within us. It is not that others are more wise but that we partner from listening to compassion, thus stand quietly out of our own busy mind or way, so that our answer can come forward.

I realized that I wanted to offer Junebug that I find her a smart & compassionate woman.

 

[Tinyflame]

Aw you as well @Recovery4Me . :hug:

I guess I mean, of course not withstanding we have to do our own work, that some things have to be taken on faith (unless we reject them). I'm not very adept at generating new thoughts or beliefs about things or myself out of my own belief or skill set.

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Junebug

I realize that I in honor and respect, accept your views of self that wish to come forward. However, please know, I see you as very beautiful and unique.

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh dear @Recovery4Me not adjectives I'd use to describe myself, but I thank you still. 'Beauty' is in the eye of the beholder I know (yikes, lol). :notworthy: :hug: :inlove:

I realize I have to do it on my own as I don't have other resources.