I Realize That I

[Tinyflame]

Yes @Wilbur amazing what the mind can seem to 'forget'- yet 'know'- then sometimes remember.

 

[Rani G2]

Press and re-start.. learn, fail and yet re-start.No stagnation more reviewing, revaluing and again start.. it’s finally coming to an OK.

 

[TruthSeeker]

I realize I’m wow so much more f’cked up than I originally thought.

 

[ms spock]

I realise that I can do it! I can be a teacher! I was awesome today! I did really well!

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize that living with a nearly-constant feeling of unsafety (only the degree varies, most of the time) likely interferes with optimistic thought.

I think much of my headaches come from blood pressure, because last week I could see my pulse in the crook of my arm. I think my nightsweats are related to stress, because I hadn't had them for a long time then twice in as many days.

I realize Idk if I believe addiction is related to being afraid of one's emotions. Or just not being able/ a space place to have or express them?

I realize I self-sabotage. But it feels appropriate.

 

[ChildofGod]

That I am the greatest fighter I've ever known, and it 's time for me to go back to being the true queen that I am.

 

[Tinyflame]

That I think my family is cursed, and me within it included; I suppose that's partly why it's good we'll mostly all just die off without kids or trace of any existence, either. And it never helped to break the cycle of abuse, over the generation.

I should have just lived it up, couldn't have been a worse end result or worse than waiting for death, or SI.

 

[blackemerald1]

I really need to step up and be ultra organised, completely present and mindful right now during this family crisis. :cry:

 

[HealingInProcess]

I realise that life can get better.

 

[Ronin]

KISS coulda be useful.

Both life organization, and the band.

 

[Rani G2]

Still feel the need to define myself,I'm this and that. You judge me? You cant touch this...I'm gonna hurt you...
Then I fall... boooo reality bites..

 

[Muttly]

I need to get back to basics. Revisit old coping skills and focus on one step at a time,