I will be ok

[AngelKeeperJ]

I just need to get this off my chest. I'm not wanting to live right now. I feel like a waste of space and worthless. I know in my heart, I think, that my thoughts are distorted.

If it weren't for my son and his family, and all the crap that I would be leaving for someone else to deal with. It would be so easy to just put on all my pain patches and go to sleep. But, it's NOT an option. Just wanted to let it out...

 

[LuckiLee]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us. Very brave of you. Sometimes that's all it takes to move on to other healthy happy thoughts. Glad you're here with us!

 

[Survivor3]

I just need to get this off my chest. I'm not wanting to live right now. I feel like a waste of space and worthless. I know in my heart, I think, that my thoughts are distorted.

If it weren't for my son and his family, and all the crap that I would be leaving for someone else to deal with. It would be so easy to just put on all my pain patches and go to sleep. But, it's NOT an option. Just wanted to let it out...

I'm sorry your feeling that way. Sometimes dark days fall upon us and we don't know how to cope. I've certainly had my fair few. I understand how you feel but be brave and know that those feelings will pass. Cognitive distortions can affect us badly. Try and say affirmations to yourself like 'I am a good and worthwhile person '. I hope you feel better soon. All the best to you. Take care and be kind to yourself.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Thank you @LuckiLee !

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Thank you @Survivor3 !

 

[Gs172003]

I don't think you're worthless at all. I'm glad you were able to reach out. Hugs!

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Thank you @Zoogal for your words...

 

[Gs172003]

Thank you @Zoogal for your words...

You're welcome

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Is SH really all that harmful if it relieves negative mental and emotional angst? Certainly not a good way of coping but better than doing other more destructive things like getting drunk or going out in emotional distress. No blood or intended blood?

 

[Ronin]

Is SH really all that harmful

Yeh. You still hurting yourself.
Is there anything else you could do?

Does writing here help you any?

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Thank you @Ronin
I am trying to be more real in my writing here. It's so much easier to encourage others. There's just SO MUCH swirling in my head and heart that it's hard to set my mind anywhere peaceful or even express in words. I do get angry that I have been through worse things yet here I am again.

I'm trying to remember to think of my blessings and of how far I have come, it's just hard to deal with this step backwards.

I am feeling a little better...I think it did help to admit it here.

 

[willhealeventually]

I just need to get this off my chest. I'm not wanting to live right now. I feel like a waste of space and worthless. I know in my heart, I think, that my thoughts are distorted.

If it weren't for my son and his family, and all the crap that I would be leaving for someone else to deal with. It would be so easy to just put on all my pain patches and go to sleep. But, it's NOT an option. Just wanted to let it out...

I am also a mom with very similar feelings. I support you wholeheartedly and hope that you feel better soon. It’s not easy but this is doable. We just have to keep communicating and doing our best...