If I Could I Would..

[zaniara]

Today I'm angry. Struggling with bitterness I don't want to feel since I know the bitterness only hurts me. I guess I'm struggling with grief. A lot of grief! (And it was only two, three weeks ago I started crying for the first time or connect at all with the grief, so I guess I have a lot of grief to deal with: since it's a lot of bad stuff in the past I never grieved for.)

SO: just for today I would, if I could, soften and accept the grief and the pain and forgive my self for feeling the bitterness and try to believe things will get better eventually if I only manage to soften my heart and suffer through the difficult feelings.

 

[zaniara]

If I could, I would cry.

I'll send you a hug if you want one. ((((Moving'On)))) (I said that, and sometimes now I regret it and wish I could back to numbness.. *laughs at my self for being inconsistent*)

 

[Lionheart]

If I could I would go back to work.

If I could I would heal myself completely from PTSD and other chronic illnesses.

If I could I would make amends to someone that I mistreated in the past.

If I could I would bring my father back from the grave and take him fishing.

If I could I would heal my mother from emphysema.

If I could I would take away the world's suffering and replace it with peace, comfort and unconditional love.

If I could I would stop children from being abused.

 

[CraftyCath]

If I could I would go back to work.

Me too, I miss my job. :(

If I could I would give my sister-in-law a good shaking.

If I could I'd take myself to hospital and stick up an Iron drip (yes, I do know how to) so I could feel better sooner.

If I could I'd stick a gin drip in the other arm at the same time! ;)

If I could I'd chase his bad weather away and make it warm and sunny.

If I could I'd pay off my mortgage.

If I could I'd get people in the UK professional help for their PTSD for free.

If I could I'd take my family away for a holiday in the sun.

If I could I'd treat my sister to something special because she has helped me so much with ideas for decorating the living room.

 

[Changing4Best]

* Sleep late.
* Walk somewhere in the neighborhood without feeling afraid of being hit by a car.

 

[ninja]

If I could I would "live up to."

 

[The Albatross]

If I could I would hit the "reset to last functioning configuration" button and then do a malware scan and a defragmentation. But it's not that easy is it?

 

[beautifulbroken]

If I could I would....fall apart. But I'm afraid there is no one here to pick up the pieces. People around me think I'm so strong but it is a facade. I wish I could show how weak and vulnerable I really am. I wish there was someone here who would hold me.

 

[amethist]

If I could I would take a way the pain my husband has about his dad being ill.

He could live quite happily for another few years yet, but try telling hubby that.

 

[Britt.f7]

If I could I would be healthy. My chronic illnesses hamper that, but that is what I would do if I could.

 

[beautifulbroken]

If I could I would....get this book done! Getting close but it feels like it never ends. Blah!

 

[NIKI]

live up to

Ninja is that you doing the hand stand in your Avatar? If it is I would give you a '10' for that hand stand. hehe :p

If I could forget about my past I would sooooooo do that.