I'm At A Play Hyperventilating

[DharmaGirl]

I promised my son I would see a play with him at the high school. He is ushering and I am sitting alone in a huge crowd trembling waiting for him to join me. I am deep breathing.

It was already a horrible day since my doctor misinterpreted a message my therapist left her and cut me off my Ativan He had said that overall I was doing better but the pain was triggering my PTSD symptoms so I needed to take Ativan every night as prescribed. All she heard was that I was better, and I didn't need any Ativan. When I called about the Ativan, the medical assistanot treated me like a lying drug seeker. I'm so done with that. I've had the same doc for 7 years and I thought she knew me and trusted me. It seems now matter what I do I'm wrong and worthless.

 

[Abstract]

So sorry it has been a bad day Monster. Try to breath through it if you can. I find sometimes I see things a bit differently when the dust has settled.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I hear you about the big crowd thing. I'm never comfortable in them either. They make me feel anxious also. Big hugs if they help and try to keep breathing :hug:.

 

[littlelostchild]

Monster, I hope you got through it. I just took an Ativan before I joined this thread, so I totally understand and I am home sitting in the light of a burning candle with ambient music playing, not in a crowded hall. I am really feeling for you.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Thanks all of you. I appreciate the support. I made it through, and the ativan kicked in enough so I really enjoyed the show. I love the fact that I can connect with you all whenever I need to. Travelling support!

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm glad you're feeling better :).

 

[littlelostchild]

So glad to hear you enjoyed it - awesome!

 

[winterose]

Aww sorry I missed your thread monster, had alot on my mind. Glad you got through it..woohoo take a bow!

 

[safenow]

Good job, monster. I am glad you got to enjoy it.