Is, worst case scenario, your next few months are f*cked. (Homeless, jobless, hungry.).
Well... to be fair: I am not in my country.
Meaning there is no being homeless without consequence. You have a week after changing address to announce it. So if I stay, I'm breaking the law.
If I return to my parents, and have become homeless it means I'm likely in debt to my landlord for rent and bills and to my phone provider which again is leaving me stuck at my parents with debt in another country, where I have spend a decade building a life. Not to mention in that scenario giving up a decade of belongings, and going to work out my health and mental issues on my parents couch and trying to resolve my situation in 2 countries.
I'm close to eviction, and at my age (34) have no savings and no retirement setup because I got PTSD in my last year of uni and for a long time couldn't work normally. And then it's been up and down.
How do I even fix all of that? Not to mention the therapy I need because of dark thoughts and the dental work I'm avoidng again for financial reasons obviously....
OKay, yes, I could have murdered someone, but are we setting the bar that low now? I haven't killed anyone so I'm good?
Thank you. I know what you're trying to say so thank you for that. It just seems that even if I'm not evicted things with be dark for a while and I'm not sure how to turn them around- which is to say if I've been trying to years and keep sliding back, then, what I was trying is not working. So the deadline's just a deadline but... how do I establish my life again? Wherever I am?
I'm not supposed to be this clueless at this age. My friends have built families and all and here I am...
At this age.
Still stuck on things I should have let go of, still having to build things everyone else I know has just done already,.
How do I even begin?? And yes, I'm trying to be fair: most of the friends that have families and all do not have poverty background. The one that does is also struggling. To be also fair neither have PTSD. BUT that doesn't change that I have to fix things I don't even know how to begin fixing.
And if it wasn't for this deadline and all else, I'm partial to doing impatient to be honest. But I am who I am, where I am, and therefore I must solve this.