Is It Possible To Have Ptsd And Not Feel Suicidal?

[StarChild]

Will anyone answer my question? Is it possible have PTSD and not feel suicidal?

Yes it IS possible, to not only not feeling suicidal but also not wallowing in hatred and vengeance fantasies. As I do have PTSD, but have never felt suicidal, and also never gave into revenge fantasies.

no life imprisonment for me, LOL

By the way @SophiaOfHearts293, you kind of seem to have way to much fun, by the way you answer and even brashly demand answers of the members here...
My gut feeling murmurs, that you actually behave more like a troll... Are you one?...

Now my questions to you:

• Do you have an official diagnosis by a professional, licensed psychiatrist or therapist?
• What exactly is the diagnosis? Is it really PTSD, or did you "diagnose" yourself as having it?
• Are you in a regular therapy, with a (trauma) therapist, at least once a week?
• Are you committed to work towards healing from whatever, or...
• Isn't it rather, that you prefer to wallow in self-pity and revenge-fantasies? (As it looks exactly like it when reading your three posts in this thread.)

Reread what you wrote:

how can he get to live such a happy life while I wallow in my sad pathetic life?

Tells a lot about your attitude...

 

[SophiaOfHearts293]

Now my questions to you:

• Do you have an official Diagnosis by a professional, licensed psychiatrist or therapist?
• What exactly is the diagnosis? Is it really PTSD, or did you "diagnose" yourself as having it?
• Are you in a regular therapy, with a (trauma) therapist, at least once a week?
• Are you committed to work towards healing from whatever, or...
• Isn't it rather, that you prefer to wallow in self-pity and revenge-fantasies? (As it looks exactly like it when reading your three posts in this thread.)

1) No, but I have been seeing a counsellor. Planning to see a professional mental health worker and a social worker in 2 weeks.
2) Trying to understand myself now.
3) Not in therapy
4) Trying to understand what I am feeling
5) Trying to understand myself.

And no, not a troll. I just want my answers.

 

[joeylittle]

@TreeHugger - you are reading some tone where there may be none; I don't know that the OP has said they prefer to 'wallow'. Their main question asks whether PTSD is always tied to suicidal ideation, which implies a desire for change.

Regardless, I do think it would help, OP, if you were able to share a bit more about your background.

I think your friend did not give you good practical advice, but I also think that for some people, connecting with anger can be a helpful thing.

 

[Nevermore]

Hi @SophiaOfHearts293
I go through bouts of feeling suicidal, it's not all the time. But having cptsd seems to have made me more easily hurt and way more reactive than I used to be, and so I go to the extremes of emotions too fast.
I do know what you mean when the person who has had such a terrible impact on you seems to get to have an easy happy life. I've seen that too in my own life
But The person who caused me the worst pain of all is one I know has no conscience and no sensitivity and therefore I think he probably misses out on the finer things of life like beauty, like nature, love, spiritual connection.
Killing him would mean losing all that myself and I don't want to.
I think peopld do pay the price, you just can't see it on the outside, and I think the price is bigger tha one id ever want to pay.
I know it's a long hard slog, but I have seen a lot of improvement in myself. I'm happy for that! I do not want to forgo my chance to live because i met a bad person.
I hope you don't either!

 

[Sideways]

Not feeling suicidal anymore may be you slowly starting to heal.

Anger at yourself has become anger at the world, and you know what, the world hasn't exactly treated you that well, so it's okay to feel that way. Anger at your abuser? Definitely okay.

But allow yourself to continue to move through it. Just like the anger at yourself has shifted, and the suicidal thinking has passed, this anger will pass as well.

There are stages to the healing process. Most of them feel pretty crappy. But moving through them is a sign of healing. So keep going. Feel the anger at the world, and then when you're ready to, let it go. Be angry at your abuser, and when your ready, redirect that energy into making your life better.

It's really common to go through a period of want revenge. It's just part of the process. But they're just feelings, you don't need to act on them and define your life by them. Feel them, then let them go.

 

[Dan28]

While I hope this does not seem pretentious, I have never felt suicidal though I have brutally suffered from PTSD. I always tell myself, "A bad life is better than no life", and while it helps me I hope you can see the sentiment.

 

[Friday]

There are a whole lot of PTSD symptoms, and they can vary a whole lot, not just person to person but over time. Unlike a lot of disorders, where they symptoms you've got are the symptoms you'll always have & it's needing to find ways to work around them... PTSD is a very cyclic disorder, and it's symptoms can change a lot .

During my good years (about a decade)... Nope. Wasn't suicidal at all. I had a little bit of insomnia in the fall. A few nightmares a year. A handful of panic attacks over the entire decade. A few other things here and there that never bothered me enough to even begin to worry about doing anything about them. I generally describe it -looking back- as running at about 92%. I was well enough that although I'd been diagnosed years earlier, I was undiagnoseable now (then), and honestly thought I'd "had" PTSD. Past tense. Which is important because symptoms can come back / which let's you plan :sneaky: and head them off before things get really bad again. Point being; with PTSD things can change.

So this shift you're noticing? Is both a good thing -in my experience- AND something to keep aiming for. Working at every symptom, until it's either gone or so little it's easily managed :D Every symptom can be altered. Lives rebuilt.

 

[aut555]

Not feeling suicidal anymore may be you slowly starting to heal.

Anger at yourself has become a...

Thanks , l needed to read this today. A important reminder about my life. FYI.

 

[EveHarrington]

I don't agree that a bad life is better than no life. It sounds like your life may be "bad" which is a relative term. Some lives really are horrendous, not just "bad".