Sufferer It Seems Like Just Yesterday...

[EmeraldBuzz]

I was 4 years old when I was first abused. Then again at age 7. Three different people, all related. They don't deserve to be referred to as family. I've been physically, mentally and sexually abused. I was robbed of my innocence...my childhood...my trust...so much!! I block things out and often forget things yet I cannot forget my childhood and the things that happened to me. My memories creep up on me. I don't usually think about things but the stupidest things trigger them. A smell, an article of clothing, food....even a damn Equal packet!! I've tried talking to therapists about things but I have a hard time opening up. I don't trust anyone really. Everytime I do, I regret doing so.

Anyways, I joined this site because I've been having bad flashbacks and needed someone to talk to. I am tired of thinking about things. I wish there was a way to forget. Hypnosis? I've thought about it but I'm afraid to open up. So I haven't tried it.

Well, I could go on and on but I won't.

That's all for now. Thanks for reading!

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome! :)

Are you interested in hypnosis as a way to forget? (Just looking for clarification.)

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[EmeraldBuzz]

Welcome! :)

Are you interested in hypnosis as a way to forget? (Just looking for clarification.)...

I'd like to but I'm scared to so I probably won't do it.

 

[RavenGirl]

The mind is very strong thing and it has a way of trying to work things out to help us. I tried to block my trauma for 35 years. Trusted no one, didn't open up to people. My trauma was going to go to the grave with me, no one would ever know what happened to me as a kid! Our so I thought.

I'm here to tell you that blocking it doesn't work. Eventually it all comes out. My advice to you is to find a good trauma therapist and deal with it so it can't high jack your life any more.

We deserve better than what we received from our abusers that's for sure! Dealing with our past so it can't hurt us takes away our abusers power; and that's a great thing!!

I wish you nothing but the best in your road to recovery, I hope everything works out for you. Welcome to the forums. :hug:

 

[EmeraldBuzz]

The mind is very strong thing and it has a way of trying to work things out to help us. I tried to b...

Thank you! I am waiting for a referral and going to look for someone to talk to. Hopefully I can find someone I can trust.

 

[EveHarrington]

I hope you have luck with finding a good therapist who can help you!

It's not just about forgetting. If forgetting the trauma was able to take away all of our symptoms then that would be awesome. Sadly it doesn't work this way. There are people who have zero memories of trauma but have many PTSD symptoms. With proper therapy you'll be able to process your trauma so that the memories don't rule your life and your symptoms decrease.

:hug:

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of people who feel similar and understand. There is a lot of advice and support to be found here :) I hope that this amazing community helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and learning a lot along the way. Hugs if you accept :hug: