It's Been A While And I Am Sinking

[Grama-Herc]

I don't remember how long it has been since I visited this forum and when I did I was rather negative and, well, quite nasty. I am having trouble managing my emotions these days. Currently, depression is the main emotion controling my life.

How can you possibly control the unhappy sense of self when it is so depressed and unhappy? I am on my meds and taking them like I should. BUT------I have no friends, no life. I ony go to the store for food and meds. The only thing I do is sit and watch TV and take care of my mother. OMG! I am so depressed

 

[JustBe]

Welcome back. I am sorry that things are not going well for you but it is good to "see" you back at the Forum Gramma-Herc :cool:

 

[strongandsmart25]

Hi Gramma-

There's a site called "Volunteermatch" that has volunteer opportunities based on search criteria (whatever zip code or city you live in). You can go in there and see if there are any opportunities/needs near you that would suite your schedule and your interests, if you wanted to try something? The best way to help yourself is to get out there and help with a cause that means something to you. It is my lifeline right now...That and the gym....

 

[nimkekaa]

I have no friends, no life. I ony go to the store for food and meds.

The best way to help yourself is to get out there and help with a cause that means something to you.

I agree with strongandsmart25. To find new friends you need to get out doing something you like to do to meet people. Is it possible to go out once a week? I started volunteering at a retirement home and now I play Bridge once a week and it is something I really look forward to.

I'm sorry your struggling so hard right now but welcome back!

 

[Loloma]

Hello Grama-Herc and welcome back to the forum.

 

[mamachick]

Welcome back gramma-
I remember many of your good posts and know you have much to offer others. Being good to ourselves is much more difficult. What you are describing does not sound like much of a life, but it sounds alot like mine. I do the same, except for caring for mother, but I am abused by grown children and cant find a way out of the situation. I also wear my broken 54 yr old body down through intense labor jobs in this big house. I need to get out, but afraid to sell and where I will go with my dogs.

I also recently realized that as a small kid, after witnessing abuse and fear, I learned to comfort myself by cleaning and cutting grass by age 7. I thought I was dumb in school, often didnt get to go, eventually avoided and preferred scrubbing the floor. We had no tv or toys to occupy.

I too an lost, dont know if this is worth it, if it will ever get better, and fear the future. Im sorry I have no good answers, but I do know how you feel. Hugs and Prayers.

 

[ms spock]

Hi Grama-Merc,

Sorry to hear you are so low. Hope you feel better soon.