Its Coming Back In Waves

[Brenton]

Hi all
My childhood trauma has been becoming more clear over the past year and this weekend I remembered something horrific. I'm having flashbacks along with feelings of dread, like something is going to happen to me, or the need to hit something, lash out like you would if you were in danger.
It really hurts
Brenton

 

[ladee]

Sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed and powerless. I can't remember if I asked if you were in Therapy? So will wait for an answer before saying anything else about that.
I have been where you are.. so tired, yet so vigilant, wanting to put a hole thru the wall, but knowing somewhere inside me there was no reason for that kind of violence.... I really do understand how you feel. As will many here. Just keep writing it out... getting it out helps, just keeps us from being so overwhelmed in our brain.
You are not alone.... understanding being sent your way.... just keep writing... this is what we are here for, to listen and not judge.

 

[Brenton]

Sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed and powerless. I can't remember if I asked if you were in Therapy? So...

Hi
I am in therapy, and its good. We're peeling layers, carefully and productively, and I trust my T - she's a great person. But, its not easy and it does bring things to the surface. We're not spinning wheels, we're getting somewhere, but its hard.
Thanks for the reply

 

[ladee]

Thank you so much for answering my question.. Yes, this is hard work and sounds as tho you are giving your all to get the layers off !!!!
It all gets very overwhelming at times... so just keep coming here and sharing... we are listening and I am sending gentle healing hugs to you if you accept.....
Just want to remind you, you are not alone.... we understand and are here for you..... a very brave thing to try and get better...very proud of how hard you are investing in yourself !!

 

[Brenton]

Thank you so much for answering my question.. Yes, this is hard work and sounds as tho you are giving your...

This is the best forum in internets land: real understanding, real sharing. I love it here, and I'm very reluctant to share anything.

 

[ladee]

And that's one of the great things about being here... you can share what you feel like at your own pace, or not share if you don't feel comfortable doing so... I share in little pieces here and there, that is what works for me... so find what you are comfortable with..... no hurry, no pressure, and trust still will be an issue.. perfectly understandable... just do and say what you are ok with.... sending you lots of hugs for your struggles... !!!

 

[Sideways]

This is the best forum in internets land: real understanding, real sharing. I love it here, and I'm very...

We all share at our own pace, because it takes a lot of courage to put it out there like you just have. @ladee is so right, you are definitely not alone - sharing the yuck helps us all feel less isolated.