Where I live, there is no one to meet. I'm leary of dating sites, I would be honest, but concerned about predators. I would have much less anxiety if I had the right someone in my life. I'm too trusting, to a fault. It's too bad people place so much value on looks when its what's inside that counts
I am sorry, Kittie. I missed all of this. Previously, you mentioned that your boyfriend didn't handle crying well. As someone with PTSD who does cry, it concerned me. So, I can't say that I am not a little relieved for you, though broken relationships are hard and I am sorry for what you are going through.
My husband and I met in our sad little home township of about 750. We have no super romantic story, though. I responded to his Craigslist ad. That was scary but once I figured out who he was (our newspaper editor) and we met in a public place, it stopped being scary.
It is what is on the inside that counts and smart people know that. It is also hard for anyone to meet anyone in a small area. But I am glad to hear you are not setting. You deserve to have a good life with an empathetic man who works at least half as hard as you do to be introspective and kind. One way or another, I think you will find that.