Letter To My Mother

[bright future28]

i feel you should of known
my cover should of be blown
Didnt you hear my crys
Notice my secrets and my lies
The change in my behavior
the anger in my tone
The girl I used to be
Now a shadow of the new me,
You should of held my hand
dragged me through the sand
Understood the pain i felt
The shame I took upon me
But you didnt
For I didnt tell you
I kept it to myself
For many years to come
Its only now you knew the pain I went through mum.

 

[Lilmssunshine]

Thank you for sharing! I'm sure writing that was very therapeutic for you!

 

[bright future28]

It was @smarrero :)

 

[Changing4Best]

I never did get a chance to write a letter to my mom; we used to talk a lot by phone once I moved out of my parents' house though. I'm glad we got a lot of chances to talk. It really helped me to know how much she loved me, even though she didn't always show it openly.

My mom was in a mental hospital after my birth, I guess that is called post partum depression and it is not uncommon for new mothers to have it. I think the meds she took made her not as open and outgoing as she had been before my birth.

Thanks for sharing here what you did. It touched my heart.

 

[bright future28]

thanks for your reply @SheilaKathy sorry for the late response havent logged on in awhile. Aw im glad you liked it :) it helped for me to write it down was very theraputic, I can relate as my mother finds it hard to show emotion also so when she does tell me shes really proud of me and love me so much it really touches me. She is also on medication so I think it can defiantly make people come across as cold and more distant x