Long term memory

[KA60]

I was raised by very strict controlling parents that I see now fit the characteristics of religious narcissist. My aunt- mother's side- with her husband adopted 2 children who were abused. The man who my aunt married went to Vietnam had affair with Vietnamese woman. He divorced my aunt who then was in trouble financially with these 2 children. Of course they were traumatized. Instead of getting help for them my aunt placed them in a private christian school where it has bern made public corporal punishment spital abuse control coercion etc were used. Since this school was private I suspect my parents my grandparents were complicit in this decision including providing financial support..many times my cousin - there was a girl and boy- the girl came to stay at our house for the weekend with black eyes. Yep auntie did it. OK. She was stressed. The responsibke thing to do- get help. Therspy for my cousins. Not this BS Christian school. My cousins were not at fault sinners had character disorders etc. My cousin the msle fell into decades of drug abuse. My cousin the girl had 4 marriages where the man was abusive. Of course I was effected by all this too. No way can I forgive my fsmiky of origion. But... I will till my last breath stand up against this in non violent ways. Thanks daddy O and mommie O. I am your legacy. You are and were cowards shameful forever traveling the river of denial. I went no contact with my dad - again- about 3 weeks ago. He told me the rapture was coming. I was raised with this. Of course according to daddy O I will be left behind in a hell on earth. Becuase my father is God and I have forever failed and sinned. My husbsnd by the way a veteran has doomsday beliefs. He has backed off because he causec us and me so much harm..We are better. Part of my trauma? Cardiopulmonary arrest and being pulled back from the brink of death. When this occurs the brain undergoes a wave of death then a wave of life. I had a crsnitomy to remove access left temporal lobe from bacterial meningitis of my brain due to chronic sinusitis. I had to relearn everything. Walking talking driving etc..Who are all these arrogant ego based people that think you know it all and control it all? Shame on you! If you are one of these keep looking in the mirror at yourself please.