Sufferer Looking For Support - Suffered Child Abuse

[SmileyG]

Hi there!

I am new here and I know in the rules is said about having good grammar but I really don't have it, I hope I will still be welcome. I was abused physically and sexually for the first thirteen years of my life, I was used in child porn and suffered three traumatic brain injuries from beatings. At age thirteen I was finally removed from my parents care but the abuse didn't stop it just changed courses. Other than antidepressants and a diagnoses of complex PTSD I have received no help. I was offered group therapy but so far have not been able to muster up the courage to go. I have severe trust issue, I rarely leave my apartment, I have no family and my best and only friend has similar issues as I do. I guess I am hoping this group can offer me some support and with that maybe I can find the courage to get myself to group therapy.

 

[Raj]

Welcome, and I hope you find a lot of very supportive people here, I feel that I have I always try to be supportive and respectful of others.

Thank you so much for sharing I know how hard it can be.

My grammar is truly terrible and I am still here!

 

[SmileyG]

Thank you so much! I have never really been on a site like this and am rather socially awkward but it seems ok here, people seem to be nice, thanks again!

 

[franciemarnie]

Welcome Welcome!

So glad you are here. I totally respect and identify with needing to stay safe and not pushing yourself to do anything you are not yet comfortable with. I have trust issues galore.

Until such time as you might feel comfortable meeting with a therapist who specializes in trauma, this is a great place to be to get support and to consider how others are finding ways to cope and heal.

Mindful meditation has been huge for me, and I learned how to do it all from reading about it on line and in books.

Hope to see you around!

 

[MsTerri]

Hello SmileyG, I think this is a very safe and supportive place to be. Your description of your past is so similar to mine. I had a big problem with leaving my home also, but with some bio-feedback, meditation and supportive medication I was able to progress and have a life, even moving to Germany for a job! It takes time and small steps, like you have done today by posting and introducing yourself. I got re-traumatized so I am back to re-building my life and taking small steps myself, so we are beside each other on the road to recovery.

 

[LostWorld]

Welcome SmileyG

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Welcome!

 

[Rainie]

Welcome, I have found sometimes one just needs what I call 'talk therapy'. A safe place to get ones words, feeling out and others perspectives. And I believe that you will know if & when you are ready for 'group' therapy.

Rainie

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[BeeLee]

Hi SmileyG. I'm new here too, having just started posting this past week. I'm so sorry that you've experienced all that you have. I experienced something similar. One thing I'd like to point out is the incredible amount of strength you have shown, 1. in surviving and 2. in coming here and posting. You've been through the hardest part, living what you have lived. When I get scared about something, or worry that I can't do something because it may trigger me, or I'm somehow going to fail, I remind myself that if I've survived what I have lived through, then there isn't anything else that can break me. Remember how strong you are, always, because you are. You'll go to group therapy when you feel comfortable with it, but if you are uncertain about it, then maybe it's just not the right time for you. I also have a lot of trust issues. It's hard to trust others when others have shown themselves to be so untrustworthy. I wish you all the best in the world.

 

[Brad1980]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the PTSD Forum! :)