coraxxx
Policy Enforcement
Hi. Very sorry to hear what happened to you and how life changing it is. I hope you'll find here at least a few resources and mostly, encouragement and a soft support through writing and corresponding. As many have already said, it isn't the same as having irl friends, but reading through diaries, conversations and questionings, even in very different experiences, brings tools to cope and learn, and regain some hope.
On a personal experience I have a punch scar and I definitely understand how people's reactions are very brutal to anything that is on your face and how scared they are by it, as if you were going to contamine them with something. How stupid it is and how hard. And how it impacts your expressions, and how you constantly feel your face responding in a way that isn't the old one, and therefore constantly reminded of it even when not seeing it, and looping back in the circumstances etc. And see everyone resuming in their other world where these things don't happen, except when they see you and you can read their fear. I can only imagine how it is for something of your magnitude, and how enraging and tiring and sad it is to see people you once trusted to turn away from you while they should offer anything but support and inclusion.
It's very disheartening to experience and I totally get that sexual assault or anything that has invisble rather than visible consequences is preferred. And this as a sexual assault sufferer too so I'm not saying this in the wind. It is not minimising the pain of anyone I think to say this.
On a personal experience I have a punch scar and I definitely understand how people's reactions are very brutal to anything that is on your face and how scared they are by it, as if you were going to contamine them with something. How stupid it is and how hard. And how it impacts your expressions, and how you constantly feel your face responding in a way that isn't the old one, and therefore constantly reminded of it even when not seeing it, and looping back in the circumstances etc. And see everyone resuming in their other world where these things don't happen, except when they see you and you can read their fear. I can only imagine how it is for something of your magnitude, and how enraging and tiring and sad it is to see people you once trusted to turn away from you while they should offer anything but support and inclusion.
It's very disheartening to experience and I totally get that sexual assault or anything that has invisble rather than visible consequences is preferred. And this as a sexual assault sufferer too so I'm not saying this in the wind. It is not minimising the pain of anyone I think to say this.